Journey of a woman

LIKE A FLASH

2011-12-28T22:45:00.000+01:00

My angel Jade wasn't feeling that well. Nose block I guess she took a cold when we went to the Friday market the other day. Feeling like a zombie...she keep on waking up till 3am. Tu pun bila mak dia realised that selsema rupanya, ngok ngek punya mak kan.

Spray ubat idung then sedut, bf, barulah dia tido till 6am. Daku jugak tak cukup tido. All this while takde masalah, as far as I remember tido the whole nite, mmg daku tido cukop... maybe masanya sudah tiba utk daku berjaga malam hu hu huwaaaaa. I was fine with it. Yg geramnya orang yg tak bangun berjaga plak lebih pot pet dari orang berjaga. Tu yg daku lagi berangin tu. Agak moody gaklar. Bila dah moody, semuanya tak kena lar. Orang buatkan kopi pun tak sedap.

But later in the afternoon, cooled down. Went to Bricoman with hubby and of course Jade. Then had lunch and lil shopping at Ikea. Suka si Jade ni keluar. Altho she got a flu, in general, she was like usual. Tido jer kerja dlm keta hu huuuuuuuuuu.

At Ikea, while having lunch, sebok tengok orang sebelah. Agak busy body gak lar gaya cik kepoh nih. Sebok tengok baby kat sebelah lar tu.

Ni food I did for Jade. Stock up utk hari mendatang hehehe.

Despite not having enough sleep, I didnt feel sleepy at all. Lagi mcm flash woman gitu kesana kemari, naik atas, turun bawah dgn movement zassss, zussss, zassss perghhhhhh ihih hih hih. Banyak benda boleh buat. Bestnya to be like this. Tak boleh bermalas malasan. Kerja rumah boleh buat, kerja office pun boleh buat. Sikit sikit, lama lama jadi bukit, tak giteww?

Abg ngan kakak pulak boleh diharap jaga adik while mom was busy preparing dinner. Syukur alhamdulillah Ya Allah.

Dah 8pm baru lar si Adam kata "ehhh lupa karate". Masa tadi tak cakap kan. We are still not getting use to his new karate schedule on Monday nite. Maka malam ini, ku hapdate calendar ku, bagi alert baek punya. Kalau lupa jugak, harus dihentak kepala ngan handphone ke dinding.. what say you?

My sweetie Ida ... oh my sweetie Ida. Sayangnya mama kat Ida nih. Sgt boleh diharap jaga adik. Dia ni asyik jer cakap "bila Ida jadi mama nanti"... and I will reply "bukan, kerja dulu, dpt duit byk, kerja bagus, baru jadi mama". Agaknya dia duk perhati jer my roll as a mother so she's imagining herself in my shoes.

She's so excited for tomorrow... they are going for a cinema, naik bus lagi tu. The kids have been telling us to go to cinema... sejak ada Jade ni payah lar nak gi cinema. Kena arrange ngan nenek kamu I guess suruh jaga Jade. Daku pun terlioq nak makan pop corn krup krap krup krap.

KENA MARAH

2011-12-27T22:41:00.000+01:00

Yer ... 6 days a week daku yg selalu bangun awal, dari bangun tak henti henti buat kerja, prepare breakfast for anyone lagi. Maka dgn itu, hari ni, daku buat malas yer jadi komer sila bangun.

Hubby went to the boulangerie(bakery shop) to buy baguettes and lil pastries for kids. Did coffee for me. Kurang umphhh tapi malas lar nak complain, kang ada yg berangin kang hahahaha.

Ida went to the "books fair" at our place. People selling second hand books. She came back with 5 books.

Hubby sent Adam to the mosquee then we all left to Decathlon Croix Blanche. Dpt juga akhirnya pelampung tapi utk si Ida jer. They dont really sell pelampung for babies. More like baju with pelampung inside tu apa kekdahnya.

Hubby told Ida that she deserves to have a present as she's been working hard at home, doing homework without us asking. Punyalah suka. Then keep on asking "abang??".

Balik rumah, ngam ngam utk sembayang Asar, then headed to take Adam.

On today, kena marah teruk si Adam, tak pernah dgr bapak dia menjerit teruk mcm nih, daku plak rasa nak jerit balik. Tapi ku diamkan ajer sbb nak mengajar anak kan. Padahal geram pun geram gak. I think typical mother kan, kita marah takper, jgn bapak dia. Yelah, kita yg berpenat lelah besarkan budak budak ni kan. Dari bawak dlm perut sampai keluar perut, sakit terjaga tengah malam semua kita yg bersengkang mata kan.

Sebabnya, si Ida ni eksen tak bagi abg dia main mainan baru dia. Disikunya abg dia, jadi abg dia plak tolak ngan kaki. Maka si Ida yg kaki autar ni keluar lar suara mengadu dia tu kan. Maka terus kena jerit si Adam ngan bapak dia yg tengah mengorok kat sofa tu. Puas Adam explain tapi tak diterima and di arah suruh naik dlm bilik (I was upstairs, bf ing Jade). Bergenang airmata si Adam mengadu kat emak dia. Then dlm bilik terdengar lar srot sret srot sret bunyi ingus maknanya menangis gak lar dia kan.

Told him, hari ni mungkin bkn salah Adam tapi papa dah naik angin, dah berkumpul sejak berapa hari ni asyik menyakat Ida jer kerja... jadi ari ni meletop lar bapak kamu tu, padan muka.

I'M BACK YIPPIEEE

2011-12-25T22:33:00.000+01:00

Wow weeee I am back in form!

Syukur, syukur, syukur Ya Allah
Syukur, alhamdulillah

Greatful that Joshline came yesterday. Otherwise, i would have still in bed, couldnt move. The pain is still there but lesser than yesterday and i can move around and started doing housework again.

Joshline came in the morning, gave me another massage, whoaaaaa feel so so good. Mana nak dpt kawan mcm ni kan. I keep reminding myself, tak boleh berkira dgn kawan mcm ni coz friends like her, hardly i can find.

She keeps on pampering Jade, lucky you little baby. And Jade is so happy to see her too. Dpt body massage, siap kencing dua kali kat auntie hahaha.

We then, left to the Friday market, damn it was so cold. Shopping time ihih hh hh. Sempat beli ni kat kedai pak arab. Perghhh enak sungguh sehhh.

Back home around noon, rush to prepare lunch, nasi ayam while Joshline was taking care of Jade. Seriously mana nak dpt kwn yg PERFECTLY knows what to do with Jade. Advantage of working at maternity hospital!

Another massage then she sent me off for a nap with Jade. What a nice life, im blessed on this beautiful Friday. I was having a nap for like 30min then the kids got back from school, heard hubby telling the kids "go c ur mother, she's upstairs" and left to his office. Agak angin lar kan daku tgh berehat.

Adam wouldnt be bothered but Ida went upstairs to see me where she keeps on callng me "maman, maman" and upon seeing me who pretended to sleep, she left with deception and heard her voice starting to cry while going downstairs "mama didnt want to talk to me". Oh my poor girl. Jade was bf ing so had to wait for awhile then went downstairs to see Ida. Pujuk time lar, sian anak mama.

Adam spent his time in the basement watching tv, then in the office, with computer. Naik atas jer ajak si ida main maka bermulalah adegan lari sana lari sini yg cukup memeningkan kepala.

Thinking back, how i have so much time before. Could monitor and make Adam study after school, that's why too he read faster then his friends at school. I dont have that precious time any more. It makes me feel really bad that im such a loser in managing my time. I really have to do something about it.

I dont want to be "more kids, no time" type.

Ida ni rajin bila suruh belajar. She can say numbers till 100 plus now. And today she did addition exercises and she loved it.

As for Adam, started to open back the muqaddam yg dah jadi jeruk. It's true that he is going to klass agama, tapi it's not enough to me. I have to make the xtra effort now. Kalau anak melayu jati and duduk Malaysia, umur mcm ni dah baca Al Quran dah agaknya. Challenge for me, help me Ya Allah.

Gotta do schedule of my time dlm masa terdekat. Cant lose that precious time doing nothing.

TERKEHEL

2011-12-24T22:24:00.000+01:00

When I woke this morning, was in form. But while I was taking a shower, that was when it started.

Zasss, menjerit tak hengat, muscle problem dah mcm jam plak takleh nak pusing kepala. Orang kita kata sakit bantal kan tapi ni bukan masa tido, masa mandi!! Ada lar movement yg trigger muscle ni terus jam.

Maka dgn itu terbaring lar kat katil lepas prepare the kids. Pakcik ni boleh plak ketawakan daku balik, telling me how I make fun of him when he had the same. Revenge yer bang. Once or twice ok lar tapi berkali kali tu mmg bisa buat daku naik angin lar.

Nak dukung Jade pun kena pelan pelan, takut terlepas sbb a bit of movement boleh trigger, sakit woo. Paling teruk so far nih. Masa nilah wish ada orang boleh jaga si Jade nih. Taknak menyusahkan Joshline. Hubby plak awal awal dah warning kata dia byk kerja kat office.

Maka pelan pelan lar dukung si Jade ni bawak naik atas, mandikan dia, pakaikan baju dia. Then terbaring lar. My poor Jade terpaksa baring gak. Minum jer kerja dia. Then at 1pm, called hubby to give Jade to her grandma to eat as I cant move. Suka dia nampak papa dia.

One hour later, dah balik dah si Jade, dia start melalak and grandma tak tau nak buat apa. Hmmm. Ceria balik tengok muka mak dia. Lepas tu apalagi, mengopek lar kerja. Pelik sungguh pelik dgn Jade ni. Bila bf, dia tido sambil minum for say 40min? Was hoping that once she finish, she will continue sleeping but not at all. Habis minum means abis tido.

Hubby went to take the kids from school. Joshline called and came to see me after hubby told her about me. Received a good massage from her for 30min. During this time, Jade who was next to me, didnt stop "talking" and replying to auntie. Punyalah excited dia tengok ada orang lain. Yelah bosan lar asyik mak dia jer.

Feel a bit better after the massage altho still takleh pusing kepala sgt.
As I was sick like this, told the kids they can sleep in our room coz I dont have time to prepare them and entertain them as I always do.

Lambatnya Jade tido skarang ni hmmmmm.

WHAT A DAY

2011-12-23T22:17:00.000+01:00

Received the monthly newsletter from our cityhall. Jade's name in the birth announcement.

Hubby left pretty early, around 5.30am.

Rushing morning for me, 8.45am appointment for Jade with the pediatrician. Ida wanted to follow me so zass zuss zass mandikan diorang.

BCG for Jade. Ok, in our country usually masa baru lahir kan so I asked them why only now so the peditrician explained to me that in France, it is not compulsary to have BCG but advisable for those living in Ile de France (like us) and those who often travel to Africa, South America or Asia.

Very adorable old pappy. Suka sgt. Very nice with kids and I love this. Unlike the general doctor huhhh. Jade was so happy to be there especially when there were other babies. Would be looking excitedly. Nampak cam gangster plak si Jade ni sbb badan embam dan besar dari the others.

Everything's fine for Jade altho the assistant was pretty surprise of the amount of food Jade is taking hu huuuuuuuuuu.

Almost a month, Jade put on like 700g, she is now 8.3kg, 67.5cm.

She cried a bit during the injection but stopped when I carried and consoled her.

Dropped by at Joshline's to have breakfast hahaha. Mmg skang ni ngan dia muka tak malu. Mcm dia gak lar kan and dia pun sungguh sporting. Been dreaming of having her best ice blended coffee so she did for me, 2 glass. Yum yummmm. Stayed like 1hour then headed home.

Adam was with IL, taken his shower. Kids spent their time playing in the living room then decided to play with the water in the bath tub and brought lot of toys to play with. Penuh bilik air, berkecah air kat lantai and I really hate this!! Sib baik lepas tu diorang kemas back to normal, alhamdulillah.

Karate lesson for Adam then me and the girls left for some groceries. Pakitam makitam mmg ketiak bau hangit kan..mode nak pengsan sat.

Always scared if i see the police while driving, since forever...there were few at the side of the road otw back

Me : alamak polis, takot takot
Ida : kenapa polis dia tgk jer mama
Me : sbb dia kata woww cantiknya dia
Ida : alah, pelasannn!

Hehe i knew she would say that! Lebar tul mulut kan

Was early to take Adam, didnt want to go back just for 10min so waited at the parking lot. Back home, play time lagi for the kids while I was busy with Jade. Minum dan makan dan minum. Masuk atas keluar bawah, itulah kerja si Jade. Tak boleh lar nak main sorang, mesti nak ada orang kat sebelah aduh aduhh Jade oh Jade.

Prepared dinner with intention to put Jade to sleep while the kids are having their dinner when hubby came back, it was 7.30pm. Jade decided not to sleep anymore, so happy to see her father that she has not seen since yesterday afternoon.

Padahal dah bagi makan nih. Bapak dia makan, dia still nganga mulut till the extend that bapaknya boleh plak question if I have given his baby to eat. Kalau anak tiri ni mau daku di cop mak tiri from hell.

I must say that Im able to control my temper a bit more than before. Yelling lesser now hahaha. Yeah menjerit itu adalah trademark kitorang hehehe.

Adam : Mama, does it exist God's language?
Ida : Yes
Adam : Yea rite, tell me how is it
Ida : chong, chong (with chinese accent)

DUGAAN

2011-12-22T21:59:00.000+01:00

I didnt sleep that well. Entah kenapa during the nite, terbayang if someone masuk bilik and stab me from behind. Will it be painful? Will I die quickly?

Then the next day we received surat daripada si meroyan. Hmmm coincident? One thing for sure, Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, cepat cepatlah bagi kiok mereka mereka semua. There goes my mood, plan to puasa gone with the wind. At noon, decided to eat, isnt it a waste just becoz of unhappy, miserable bitch(s)?

Joshline dropped by when we were about to leave to a restaurant so invited her. She wanted to ask hubby's favour about the house that they are looking for.

Back home she stayed till it was time to take the kids. Menggomol Jade lar lagi sambil chit chat. Punyalah suka si Jade ada orang kat tepi dia.

Hubby left at 3pm for a shooting in Paris. Brought Jade with me to take the kids.

BACK TO SCHOOL

2011-12-21T22:48:00.000+01:00

Back to school for kiddies. Oh I woke up right after my alarm started to make a sound. Punyalah awal, boleh take my own sweet time nak bersiap.

Lepas mandi and solat and make up semua, terpaksa bangunkan Jade utk minum.. melimpah ruah dah ni, the whole nite she slept from 9pm, daku yg terseksa hu huuu.

As expected, oh my drama queen, start menangis bangun tido knowing that she has to go. Bila nak pegi, time tu lar kata sakit perut. Taktik taknak pegi sekolah but sorry my dear, you have pretty severe parents in the house. And dont ever try to play the crying game with your father at school hu huuu. That's why too I prefer not to send her to school. Just hate it when she starts her drama and I will feel bad and she can feel it. Hey, Im a mother!

Almost forgotten about Jade's appointment with PMI for the tubertest for her BCG on Wednesday. Maka terpaksa rush mandikan Jade as they are close at noon.

Then the school called saying that Adam cried as he is hurt from the stomach. Ni mmg teruk benar lar ni kalau sampai menangis nih. Nasib baik lah hubby's working at home, takdelah daku stress nak kesini, nak kesana dan syukur jugak IL sebelah umah jer so anything boleh count on them. So hubby took Adam and went to the doctor. He was so afraid that Adam has appendix..in which is not the case, alhamdulillah. Something like gastric. Yelah pegi sekolah tak breakfast, sapa suruh. Dah ckp byk kali makan, sebok tengok tv.

As for Jade, suka dia tengok ada babies and different environment. Daku memula takut gak dia ni melalak bila mak itam tegur tegur dia. I mean hitam giler giler punya mcm kuali, im telling you. Sib baik anakku ni berhemah jua orangnya heheheh.

Kena inject dia tak nangis and tak bergerak, sebok tengok muka makcik tuo kat situ plak hehehe.

Rush rush rush back home, Joshline was early and was infront of the gate, no one open the door, hubby wasnt back yet with Adam, and IL house was unlock but there was no one.

Jade was sleeping, must be from the injection, went flat for about 30minutes. Didnt cry to see auntie. Abis kena gomol si Jade.

Leaving me peaceful time to prepare lunch. She stays till it was time to take the kids from school. Great to have her for chit chatting sometime. Miss her ice blended coffee. Gonna drop by her house somewhere this week.

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Dessert, bubur durian. First testing. Mcm tak pass jer hu huuuu.

Ive make it a point that Jade will go to bed at 7.30pm. Ive prepared dinner so peaceful time to attend Jade. Dah tertido, quickly rushed downstairs as Ida was alone as hubby went to take Adam from his karate lesson. Tak lama lepas tu Jade melalak. Sikit lagi nak bawak turun bawah when I saw her eyes closed. So sambung bf. Tertido balik 15min later so turun balik bawah to accompany them to have their dinner. Terdengar dia melalak but stopped not long after.

Quiet time chit chatting with hubby and the two kids. Could attend to them when Jade's sleeping. Lepas Isyak, asked them baring on my lap, baca al fatihah and 3kul sambil usap usap kepala diorang. Punyalah suka memasingnya.

Then pot pet plak mulut, suka mak dia buat kerja dlm bilik diorang. Adam asked me "when you are old, will you do your caca (berak) in your underwear?"

Me : Of course
Ida : That's why she has to wear diaper
Adam : Your job to change mom's diaper!
Me : No both of you, but I hope you won't be angry and scold me when I do my caca in my diaper. Adam you have to make sure that your wife is nice with me, dont treat me like a trash
Adam : Ok

LAST DAY

2011-12-20T22:27:00.000+01:00

Last day for Adam and Ida with no school. Ida already started to cry when I told her she has to go to school tomorrow. Dah sah sah jadi drama queen esok pagi nih.

She plays a lot wth Jade as usual. Took a bath together where Jade started to poo again in the water altho she did it before in her diaper so I guess mmg kegemaran dia ni poo dlm air. Sejemput jer but was enough to make kak Ida menjerit calling for me "mamaaaa, Jade dia belak". Then told le "Ida dah bagitau Jade dah jgn belak, tapi Jade belak jugak".

She spent her time a lot with grandma, painting. Then insisted on doing cup cakes as we have bought the cups fro Ikea the other day. Dah janji tetap janji. Altho too tired and too occupied with Jade, ku turutkan jua. Before sleeping, she told Jade "Jade, esok kakak sekolah, Jade jgn nangis tau". Padahal tau dia yg akan nangis. Somehow, very touching dah daku plak rasa nak nangis.

My junior masterchef (tengok si perasan kat belakang nun)

My baby masterchef.

As for...Adam, klass ugama. Papa anto and ambik as i was too occupied with Jade who hardly sleep during the day. Most of his time Adam spent in the office, discovering photoshop and keep on printing grrr. Either this or playing computer.

Sedih jugak rasa after a week having them at home. Mesti selalu mcm ni bila dah terlalu lama takde sekolah.

Jade oh Jade. Kenapalah during the day tak tido sgt. Tido while breastfeeding, abis minum terus bangun. Mmg daku, nak buat kerja pun payah. I think becoz she is a breastfeed baby, tak bolehlah nak main sorang sorang lama sikit. Main sorang dlm 30min pastu nangis. Bila dukung diam plak. Kalau baring sesama kat katil bkn main happy lagi. Takkan lar daku nak terbaring the whole day kan. Tak boleh jadi betul, esok kena train dia nih and fix her sleeping time.

Kesian kat abg and kakak dia tak dpt enough attention.

Senangnya zaman skarang, ada kemusykilan jer, terus rujuk internet. Making life really really easy, syukur.

PORT SAINTRY

2011-12-19T22:42:00.001+01:00

Waduh waduh bangun lambat semuanya since budak budak ni mc tak gi sekolah. Weekend lagi lar kan. Tapi sebagai ibu dan isteri, what to do, kena bangun before anyone. Bangun jer tak henti buat kerja kat dapur, then kemas rumah etc.

Lambatnya bersiap ari nih. Mmg kalau x masak, late lunch punyalah. But since it was a good weather, decided to enjoy it. Plus, hubby's havent finish doing the cable for his radio in the boat. We bought Mc D and picnic in the boat. When he finished, ronda ronda along the river.

Adam ngan Ida ni kalau time kamcing mmg sgt kamcing. Bila gaduh, ada jer benda nak bertekak. Si Ida sesikit mengadu, dgn suara yg sungguh annoying.

MANUSIA

2011-12-17T15:14:00.000+01:00

Manusia mmg bermacam ragam kan. Mmg rata rata ramai yg suka jaga tepi kain orang. Ramai juga yg kita sangka kawan tapi back stab kawan balik.

Paling teruk yg takde angin takde ribut, punyalah jaki ngan si polan nih yg happy dlm hidup dia, gi perli perli kat status FB. Cakap direct taknak, busuk hati lah katakan maka perli perli lar yg dia mampu.

Kekadang pelik gak kan ngan manusia nih. Patut lah Allah jadikan situasi dia mcm tu (hidup tak happy/ada laki tapi tak guna/duit banyak tapi hati gundah gulana/duit banyak tapi tak kawin kawin/byk duit tapi tak lawa dan takde sapa nak dsb), sbb hati kotor mcm tu. Jadi don't wonder lar orang buat baik pun ko jadikan hal nak perli perli kan. Kalau hati dah busuk hmmm... nauzubillah.

Sometimes terfikir, orang yg suka observe apa orang lain buat, gi vacation, gi shopping, bersedekah ker, beramal ker pastu jadikan issue utk perli perli, mmg sah sah lar no life punya orang. Sbb kalau orang ada life, dia takde masanya nak jaga tepi kain orang. Orang lain happy, good for them lar, takyah jaga tepi kain orang.

It makes me wonder, berapa ramai lar yg meluat ngan aku kan yg selalu post gambar kids khas utk tatapan my family. Berapa ramai yg mengumpat belakang belakang sbb ada gak terasa ngan status someone dulu pasal posting gambar holiday nak menunjuk. Masa tu wonder, dia ni tujukan kat aku ker...then berfikiran positive and just forget about it sbb niat bukan nak menunjuk but just for sharing kan. Sekali tup tup bila dah jadi kes perli perli nih, terpikir plak hmmm.

The answer is simple lar kan to those yg busuk hati, yg jaki dgn kesenangan orang tu kan, if you think you cant stand to see or hear about that people, publishing on their wall, so why dont you just delete them from your list? Kan senang, tak payah buat dosa nak perli perli kawan sendiri yg tak tau takde angin takde ribut, kena perli. Itu namanya back stabbing, belajar tinggi tinggi pun tak guna gak, towards the end, bongok gak ko.

Eh dah tersasau plak jadi one of the people yang no life ops opss opsss!!

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My little Jade slept from 8.30pm till 6am, heard her playing alone in her bed, in the dark. Konyang dia and continued sleeping till 8.30am.

We left to the asian supermarket around noon. Groceries, yippie.

Nampaknya akan selalu masak asian food lar this week muahahaha. Ada yg termuntah kang hehehe.

My little girl is indeed such an adorable little girl, despite her nagging each time she wants or ask for something. Very adorable I must say. But sensitive most of the time. Attention is what she needs at the moment. Altho she can play alone independently without needing us to be there, sometimes she will just come and see me to find out what am I doing.

This morning the girls were ready to take a bath together after almost a week not doing so due to Ida's skin infection. So Jade was ready in the bathtub and kak Ida was still bisy looking at Mr bean in youtube. When she was about to join Jade, heard her screaming "mama, jade dia belak dlm air".

Ayo yooo Jade, dah lama tak buat lagi ni almaklumlah selalu mandi express, tak sempat nak memerut. Muka tak bersalah tu yg tak tahan tu. Makan kus semangat. Dlm keta tengok orang makan, langsung taknak minum susu, duk tengok mulut mak dia mengunyah. Maka kena suap, terus diam. She fell asleep at 8.30pm. Senang sikit dia dah tido, barulah ada space for me to breath.
My kids that I love so much ... you are the light of my life ... other than your father of course.

DUHAI ANAK

2011-12-16T14:39:00.000+01:00

Sungguh bertuah dpt tido the whoe nite, Jade was awake at 6am only after sleeping at 9pm. Lepas minum, let her sleep in our bed where she slept till 8am. Lepas tu sebok tepuk tangan mak dia, suruh bangun lar nih yer nak oi. She was the first one to have breakfast, lucky you little girl!

Lazy day, no cooking. Asked hubby to buy my favourite pizza. Kiranya mmg relax habis ari nih. Sbb tau, malam kena buat kerja!

Ida spent her day playing in the veranda. Sometimes came to see me, nak manjalah tu. Alhamdulillah her skin is becoming better, the infection is lesser now. Both her and Adam are so happy to not go to school this week cheh.

Jade plak bila nampak Ida, dia punya excited..sampai ketawa mengekeh ngekeh yg i can never make masa gomol dan geletek dia. Hanya Ida yg boleh buat dia ketawa. Bila nampak kakak dia ker, mata dia lighten up, muka berseri seri and ready to ketawa. I love you so much girls.

As for Adam, he spent his time in the office, either playing game or exploring photoshop.

Readen something about Rasulullah s.a.w. melayan kanak kanak. Tersentuh hati. Banyak yg perlu diperbaiki di dlm menangani anak anakku nih. Terlampau byk kelemahan sbb ikutkan hati yg marah. Disebabkan marah, anak anak yg jadi mangsa, kesian kadang kadang kat anak anak. Masa marah tu mmg tak ingat tapi 1min later, datang rasa bersalah. Jgn sampai anak membenci kat mak sendiri sudah.

Semoga mak kamu berubah hendakNya, amin.

ADAM'S TURN

2011-12-15T12:13:00.000+01:00

It was Adam's turn to be infected. The skin just below his mouth got infected even more than yesterday. Could get an appointment at 9am. Mood tak berapa baik lar pagi ni. Kena bf Jade dulu, by that time dah pukul 8.45am, asked Ida to take care of her lil sister, sian anak mama kena jerit hmmm.

Lambat about 5min jer. So mmg dpt the same skin infection like Ida. So under anti bioitic for a week and no school for a week. Kang kena kat orang lain. Punyalah suka dia tak ayah gi sekolah huhhhhh.

Hubby left for a meeting around 11.30am, i was too occupied with Jade and wasnt really feeling that good so asked the kids to eat with grandparents next door. They did their favourite dish. Half boiled egg with butter and salt, cecah ngan baguette with butter. Bertambah tambah makan. Mak kamu jer kesian tak makan..eh mkn lar, bowl of corn.

We left around 5pm to Evry shopping complex as hubby insisted of going out. Yelah semenjak nak cut badget ni, jarang keluar n makan luar than usual. Today was a shopping day for me. Had dinner at a japanese restaurant in which we find dah tak sedap sangat.

Ida ni byk kali suruh mak dia beli high heels cam ni... nak oii .. kut mak kamu ni kurang 10kg mcm masa sebelum ada anak dulu takper... sian kat tumit kasut tu nak menampung berat badan mak kamu nih ... terkehel kaki pun satu, nak melayan korang bertiga neh!! Doakan mama hilang 10kg tu, baru mama boleh catwalk pakai kasut ni hokay!

DANGEROUS

2011-12-14T11:45:00.000+01:00

Happy Jade in the morning.

Ready to go out.

So our doctor is back from holiday and could get an appointment with him at 9.15am for Ida. Asked hubby to go this time round. Asyik daku jer kena pegi. Dah tu kena angkut semua sekali plak tu. Sometimes man kan, takleh dimanja sgt kan. Kena paksa participate gak in certain things.

Turns out not to be herpes but another virus which is contagious. So she's under anti biotic and applying cream. Also got a MC from the doctor for 10days. Rupanya replacement doctor silap bagi ubat .. patut lar makin teruk. Mengong punya doctor pak itam.

Punyalah suka dia bila dgr tak payah pegi sekolah for 10days. Applied the cream, few hours later mcm ada improvement so told her "aa dah elok ni boleh lar pegi sekolah". She replied "ayyyy tapi doctor kata Ida tak boley pegi skola 10 ali larr". Ewah ewah.

Hubby left for his shooting at 12.30pm, me and the girls left to Evry shopping complex. Dah janji nak belikan Ida Play Doh sbb the one she has semuanya dah takleh pakai. Then off for shopping at H&M. Shopping utk orang jer. Dah takleh spend dah this week. Bajet lari other wise. So encek suami, your turn groceries this week.

MIL took Adam from school.

BACK IN FORM

2011-12-13T11:32:00.001+01:00

Lady of the house is back in form, syukur alhamdulillah. Unfortunately this only meaning, back to work!

Yeah very very true .. a house need a woman, seriously. But sorry to say, this goes only to the REAL woman, bukan woman yg pemaleh, tak buat kojo, kaki mengangkang, laki yg buat kojo yo .. mcm minah salleh or french lady or queen control bitch from hell lar contohnya muahahaha.

Seperti ibu ibu yg lain lar kan, bangun tido jer, buat kerja, kelentang kelentung kat dapur .. kemas apa yg diorang dah tinggalkan malam tadi, yg tak sempat kemas sbb tak sihat kan. Prepare breakfast. Baru rasa nak rush minum sebelum diorang bangun, kucing plak dah menempek tepi tingkap nak makan. Dah lose time kat situ. By the time dah prepare utk semua orang, itu jam si kici plak dan menguekkkk.

Itu routine harian. Tapi itu routine harian, hari ni bertukar ihih hih hih. Daku dapat bedal dulu breakfast sesama with hubby and kids, while Jade was playing alone for 1hour. Alhamdulillah anak mama nih, asal dia nampak mama or ada orang kat tepi dia jer, she's alrite. Maka dia lar yg last sekali breakfast ari nih, lepas mak dia udah konyang hehehehe.

No sunday market. So far so good, this week, kurang belanja dari biasa. Crisis economy mmg terasa. Clients byk yg tak bayar. Semoga Allah permudahkan jalan bagi kami dan rezeki kami bertambah murah seperti sediakala, amin amin ya rabbal allamin.

Hubby sent Adam to his ugama klass. Then off he went with MIL to buy something at a DIY shop. I took him back later on.

No nap for Jade. Sunday mcm ni lar kan... semua orang bangun lambat, schedule pun semuanya lambat maka tido time dia pun lari. Kerja nak berkepit jer. Asal ada tepi mak dia dah mencukupi.

Eh takde story pasal cik songeh ni but only a photo.

STILL

2011-12-12T22:55:00.001+01:00

Still feeling sick but today, had to move my butt to wake up, otherwise, I will be starving to death (cewah).

A wife and a mother don't have the right to be sick. Am sure all moms out there agree with me. Who's going to run the house? Rumah mmg jadi tunggang langgang lar dibuatnya. Anak anak mmg tak makan lar jawabnya. The thing is, budak budak ni pun tak kisah nak makan, makan junk food pun diorang dah cukup. Kita yg jadi mak ni yg kesian.

So today, tugas as a wife and a mother, sambung balik. Altho am still sick, but hey, this is the price you have to pay to be a wife and a mother, like it or not. Looking at the bright side, at least hubby is not really that fussy altho he can be such a pain in the ass at times.

Bangun jer non stop buat kerja, yg bangun lambat terus duduk and have breakfast dgn amannya. Lucky kan jadi lelaki ni.

So he insisted on going to the boat. Complained that no one cares of his interest. Takleh paham bini tak sihat ker aper kan, nak ikutkan dia jer. Sib baik disogok ngan lunch out hahahaha. Tapi semua makan tak sedap ari nih. Jadi kurang licin lar pinggan ihih hih hih.

Jadi mak ni, mcm mcm lagu boleh cipta kan. Mmg boleh buat lagu utk kanak kanak ribena lar. Memula diorang (Adam and hubby) kutuk kutuk lar kata "dah sudah dia dah start nyanyi daaahh" or with that sound "oh la la". Sekali tak lama lepas tu, terdengar diorang plak humming lagu ku cheh.

Was pretty good weather today. Hubby bertukang pasal speakers for his radio, buat lubang sana sini kat his boat. Good thing is bila ikut dia pegi boat, he will do everything to please us, mmg rasa mcm permaisuri lar, lebarkan punggung jer muahahaha. Sian my dear hubby, masa dan nak parking boat and dia turun, tergolek dog, entah apa mimpi ntah tergolek. Daku boleh bantai gelak nih wakakakaka padahal orang tu dah bleeding dah, sikit lagi nak kena urat tangan hu huuuuuu.

Feeling much better in the evening. As for Ida, nampak mcm takde perubahan jer, makin byk sort of kudis lagi ada lar hmmm. Sungguh tak bagus lar replacement doctor ni hmmm. Next week kena jumpa jugak Dr Nera. Itu pun kalau dia dah balik cuti hmm.

TERRIBLY SICK

2011-12-11T22:49:00.001+01:00

Didnt really sleep well. Ache everywhere with massive headache. Bf Jade lagi, sakit sakit badan rasa.

When the lady of the house is sick, semua nya plak dah jadi pemaleh. Kita yg sakit, bapaknya lar plak yg mcm tak cukup tido. Boleh plak nak marah marah gue plak kata sapa suruh tak pakai jacket keluar, dah pesan byk kali. Orang tengah tak sihat ni, cakap elok elok takleh ker.

He did breakfast around 11.30am and we had in bed. No lunch, kesian kat budak budak ni. Mcm ni lar bila mak kamu tak sihat kan, mmg tak makan lar kamu semua. Excuse dia, late breakfast. Daku perut berkeroncong abis ni. Nak bangun turun bawah, tak larat. Setakat mandikan Jade and Ida, boleh lar tahan. Pastu terbaring the whole day. The only medicine I can take is panadol as Im bf.

Thank you Jade for being such a wonderful baby. As long as mom's next to her, she will be alrite. Makin gedebab plak sayang mama nih, agak kus semangat lar bila dukung, mmg bisa sakit belakang.

Adam spent most of his time playing with computer game as papa bought him the latest game. Tu jer kerja dia. Kerja sekolah ugama tak buat lagi nih.

As for Ida, main kat veranda. She's very independent, can play alone. Cuma at times, dia datang tengok mak dia. She needs my attention. Sian anak mama. Im too occupied with Jade and no time for her.

SICK

2011-12-10T22:44:00.001+01:00

I was awake by Ida who was crying, telling me she's hurt so much from the mouth. Found that the rashes have spread to another corner of her mouth with few around the mouth.

I could get an appointment for her at 9.30am, rushed to prepare the girls, was a bit late. It was another doctor replacing Dr. nera. Kureng sikit lar doctor ni actually.

Off to the pharmacy later on to buy the medicine then off to do some groceries. Ida pushed the stroller and me, the trolly. Byk jugak belanja ari ni, penuh trolly.

Back home after lunch, started to feel sick, shivering everywhere. Then mengidam kuey teow tomyam. But unable to stand up, melepek jer lar with Jade in bed. Hubby left for his boat, bertukang. Muak sebenarnya. Came back only at 6.30pm. Found out that i was sick, he has taken care of Jade...like less than one hour hahaha.

He prepared dinner for the kids. Already not too bad.

AQUA SENART

2011-12-09T22:36:00.001+01:00

Entahlah kenapa cepat naik angin sgt hari nih. Asyik menjerit jer kerja. Towards the end of the day bila tengok diorang tido, rasa guilty and kesian sgt. Apalah salah diorang mak diorang buat mcm ni. Hmmmm rasa nak hentak jer kepala kat dinding. But of course lar tak buat kan.

Si kaki report Ida ni suka sgt merepot. Ada jer benda nak report. Kut abg buat dia and nak me report tu boleh diterima lagi. Ni yg none of her business pun nak mereport jugak. Suka sgt tengok abg kena marah. Yg abang pun satu, suka sgt menyakat. Bila cik songeh kena sakat, maka keluar lar suara very annoying tu kan yg typical suara budak pempuan merengek nangis tipu tu. Very very annoying Im telling you.

Hari ni mak kamu kesabaran takde. Maka menjerit je lar kerja. Rasa nak sakit kepala each time dengar suara memasing start nak mengadu. Sikit jer nak kena tali pinggang memasingnya.

Sabar adalah separuh daripada iman, take a deep breath. Ini anugerah Allah. Enjoy it while I can. So I have to be zen, keep on telling this to myself. Marah marah selalu bukannya elok. Not good for them and not good for me either.

I have to put myself in their shoe, imagine kalau asyik kena marah jer hmmmm. Kena sentiasa ingat nih coz im not happy with myself either. Maafkan mama yer anak anak. Esok dan hari seterusnya, mama cuba control temper mama ni. Semoga Allah permudahkan.

As I have promised them since days ago and as Ida dah proudly canang satu sekolah yg she's going to swimming pool, sampai assistant class dia pun cakap semalam "i know that you are going to the swimming pool tomorrow", maka janji kena lar lunaskan.

Cuma agak rushing lar nak get ready. Lepas breakfast kena kemas rumah dulu ... berserabut kepala kalau balik penat penat tengok rumah bersepah.

Menyinggah kejap kat few kedai cari pelampung utk Ida. Semuanya abis!! Maka mandilah Ida guna pelampung belt kat sana yg she dislike.

Tak ramai orang, alhamdulillah. Tempat baby pun lengang, maka dgn amannya ajar Jade swimming. Doing it slow and steady. Takmo dah tenggelam kat dia. Hati ni mcm hancur dan pedih tengok dia terkapai kapai dlm air. Biarlah slow slow asalkan dia enjoy. Sgt sgt happy Jade mandi swimming pool. Gelak ketawa lagi tengok kakak ngan abg dia. One hour in the water for Jade!

For Ida, pun suka jugak, time nak balik taknak balik. Duk panggil mak dia suruh tengok, suruh tengok. Mak dia ni pun tengok sikit mcm nak taknak sbb occupy dgn Jade. Mcm manalah Ida tak buat perangai kan sayang. Sian anak mama nih. She wasnt feeling that good. Ada byk rashes ke menda ntah tepi mulut dia. Esok tak elok jugak, kena bawak pegi pharmacy. Asyik mengadu sakit mulut nak bukak.

Adam plak asyik kena marah jer dia hmmm. Apa taknya, suruh sembayang berkali kali kena suruh. Barang dia ada jer dia letak ceruk sana, ceruk sini, bawah meja pun dia leh sorok barang dia, mmg angin. Lepas tu lupa mana letak.

Tiring day for him. Pagi swimming pool, petang plak karate lesson. And he refused to join papa to Port Saintry for his boat. Sbbnya? Mak and the girls pun maleh nak pegi. Boat, boat boat ... dah jadi bosan dah, besides, after the swimming pool, sgt sgt penat.

Jade oh Jade. Ingatkan lepas berswimming, akan pengsan lama. Mmmm takdenya. Tak sampai 2 hours tido. Makan kus semangat. 4 times a day babe. Pastu tengok kakak dia makan chocolate mousse, pun dia nganga mulut. Punyalah suka kak Ida suap dia.

WARNING

2011-12-08T22:28:00.001+01:00

Alright, hubby insisted on Jade sleeping in the middle. Bukan main berlemak berkrim disukai ramai lagi ko Jade yer. Toleh kiri, bau ketiak, toleh kanan bau ketiak, mau tak lena tido sampai kul 9am.

But I had to feed her at 6am, cant wait anymore, melimpah ruah dah hu huuu.

Hubby left at 5am. So no choice, had to send the kids to school. Keluar awal to reach awal, nyampah ngan jalan jam depan umah nih. Mean time, MIL standby for Jade. Tapi mak dia balik pun dia tido lagi. Seperti biasalah kan baru nak isi perut jer "tingggggg" dia bangun.

Just a relaxing bath today. She seems to be scared the moment I make her laying down on her back. Mesti teringat masa tenggelam dlm air. My poor Jade. Besides, suda kena warning ngan bapak dia jgn buat lagi hu huuu. Nampak gayanya kena practice kat swimming pool lar.

Hubby came back for lunch, together for the 2 guys. Madame in a good mood to cook for his workers.

Jade had a nap like 1 1/2hours. Could do some work in the kid's room and continued later on while she's playing behind me on the floor.

She's eating 4 times a day now. Yogurt in the morning, teatime and in the evening. Rice cereal for lunch. Poo dia pun dah bertukar dah. No more like diarhea. Bau still the same hahahaha.

As for Ida... duk mengadu sakit gigi. Gigi kat atas dah goyang, tunggu masa nak luruh jer. Bibir plak kat corner tu pecah. Ni sejuk punya pasal lar ni dah tu tak pakai lip balm. Sama mcm si Adam. Each time nak kena cakap hmmm. Mmg I have to monitor them.

Make sure they brush their teeth, pakai cream, sikat rambut, pakai gel. Pesan hembus dan clearkan idung tu. Kalau tak monitor mmg tak buat.

TEETHING

2011-12-07T22:26:00.000+01:00

Ok...Jade officially tumbuh gigi. Nah ambik ko sekali dua keluar. She started to make new sound too. "bwaaaa...bwaaa"..as if she's trying to say "boire"(minum).

She woke up at 6am, bf her for awhile, then she refused to sleep grrrrr. Duk main sorang sorang dlm gelap ngan suara "aaaa... aaaaa". Ok, I gotta get up anyway. Had to rush this morning. So the kids pun rush having their breakfast, that is, one yogurt each.

At 9am, Jade started to be grumpy. Apa taknya dari 6am kan bangun. But sorry yer sayang, bagi mama settle the kitchen and laundry dulu.

Swimming lesson lagi. Nak gugur jantung buat Jade mcm ni and I really feel bad, as if Im trying to kill my own baby. So no more letting her go like this. I feel as if Im torturing her. Altho she cried badly but the moment I held her in my arms and calmed her down, she stopped immediately. But I wont do this anymore. Instead, will do it slowly. Step by step.

Good thing is, she slept for the next 2hours plus lepas tu hehehe. What a peaceful time for me to do my work in the kid's room. Lunch pun panaskan lauk semalam jer. Sorry yer bang, dinda kalau concentrate buat kerja, mmg takde masa nak masak yer, harap maklum ekekek.

Hubby left at 2.30pm to prepare his materials for the shooting tomorrow.

Cold windy, rainy weather. As if it's going to snow. Terpaksa angkut Jade to fetch the kids as MIL wasnt there. Kena balut si Jade. But she was soooooo happy to go out. Kaki berjalan mcm mak ko jugak Jade kan.

And today, surprisingly tak nangis nampak my friend. Dia senyum senyum lagi and orang tu dukung pun dia diam. Good girl.

At nite, started to be grumpy. So I keep on massaging her gum. Mmg ada dua biji gigi dah keluar. I really have to to go the pharmacy tomorrow.

Nak menganto dan ambik abang Adam yg dah tukar karate schedule lagi. Nak mengangkut semuanya lar plak. Musim dah sejuk mcm ni lar, nak kena balut lar, bukak, balut ...sigh.

SALAM AIDIL ADHA

2011-12-06T22:18:00.000+01:00

Salam aidiladha buat semua. Betapa seronoknya kalau raya kat Malaysia kan. Invited IL for lunch. Hubby was being very helpful. If everyday camni kan bagus, bang hihi. Roast chicken (beli mari) n did briyani.

Quiet week for Adam. No karate(as he changed group) n no arabic class. But next week, siap lar.

Here's little Jade berbaju kurung... belongs to Kak Ida when she was about her age.

Manisnya buah hati mama ni berbaju kurung... sponsored from Auntie Lili.

DUNDEE PARK

2011-12-05T22:13:00.001+01:00

Lamanya baby mama ni tido. 6am baru bangun nak minum, sambung tido sampai 9am. Oh ya, my girl is teething finally. Not biting me yet haha.

Hari ini dlm sejarah. I am one that crazy mother, got motivated after looking at those vidoes of baby swimming and floating in the water. So today, I started my experiment with Jade. My mistake for not filling enough water in the bath tub. Punyalah panic actually. Bravo Jade, bravo for your first swiimming lesson. i am so proud of you.

Ida started her first new karate group today....crying! Sib baik bukan daku yg anto hu huuuuu. Yelar, group her age, mcm budak taska plak. Group yg ni, ramai yg besar plak so dia jadi takut.

Adam releks abis this week. No karate, no klass ugama. But starting next week, will be hectic for him where he will start the extra activity class till 6.30pm everyday. Then on monday after class, he will go directly for karate lesson for an hour, balik tu mesti KO.

I could push hubby to change our usual weekend routine, which is doing groceries. Hve to think about the kids too. Beriadah with them, doing things kids their age would love to do. Nak ikutkan bapaknya, mmg takkan pegi lar tempat budak budak kan. Dia ikut hobby dia jer. When he doesnt like somethng, he thnk everyone wont like it. Totally wrong.

We had lunch at a japanese buffet restaurant. Sedap sungguh sehh. One vietnam lady working there (around 40s),kira vogue gak lar and very friendly played with Jade. To my surprise, Jade adores her! Just when i thought she is scared of people. So my conclousion is, Jade ni takut dgn orang kalau kena approach mendadak. Dgn cik kak ni kena slow slow.

Kids we so happy to go to Dundee parc terutamanya Adam and Ida. Jade was excited to see kids running here and there. But after one hr, she had enough with the noise....and so were we muahahah. Except the two kids of course.

Kena cari activity lain next weekend.

At the moment, all i could think of is to teach Jade to swim!

JANJI

2011-12-04T22:04:00.001+01:00

Promised the kids since yesterday that they will have freshly baked cookies after school. Janji haruslah ditepati otherwise memakan diri wooo and they will use that against me hu huuu.

Tapi sorrylah tak sempat nak meresize gambar cookies etc, maka gambo anak anak jelah yer, harap maklum.

Jade, "dikenakan" oleh emaknya.

My sweetheart.

Tak larat kak Ida nak dukung Jade. Pesan kak Ida ngan Jade sebelum mandi bersama sama "Jade, jgn belak dlm air yer".

BACK TO SCHOOL-5MONTHS

2011-12-03T22:14:00.001+01:00

Hubby left around 6am.

I was saved by little Jade as my alarm clock didnt ring. Tq Jade, i love u do much.

Ida started to cry when it was time to go, when i asked them to kiss jade before sending jade next door. Telling me "i love jade".

I know during school holiday, she plays with Jade a lot. Singing lullaby to her lil sister. Seeing her calling upon Jade and Jade eyes will lighten up seeing big sister. Such a joy. My heart ache sending her infront of her classroom. I can feel that she can cry anytime so I cant show my sad feelings so quickly change the subject so that she will forget.

Jade celebrated her 5months on earth. How time flies, my little baby. I wish you stay baby like this. Am sure am gonna miss this. I can feel one tooth is going out!! No wonder she keeps on putting her finger in her mouth!

I spent my day doing house chores, never ending to this. The house is clean and neat now (almost), just love to see this. Jade was alrite, fell asleep atas kerusi goyang dia while I was having my breakfast. Took her for a bath around 10am, she slept from 12.30pm till 2.30pm, quiet time for me to prepare and have lunch and finally some work in the kid's room.

I have yet settling down in the office so the kids's room is like my lil office now. Files and documents everywhere on Adam's table huhuuuuuuuu. Kena settle down cepat nih.

MIL took the kids from school. Ida came running to Jade, kissing and hugging her. Jade was so happy to see big sister.

BEAUTIFUL DAY

2011-12-02T22:23:00.002+01:00

Hubby left at 6am. Siap jam dia bunyi 1hour earlier, dah daku terbangun grrrr.

Kena warning si Adam lps ni..dah berapa kali dia buat mcm ni, angin tul. Hahaha mmg style nak kunyah pipi adik dia, mmg angin, reti lap xper gak..dah potong stim mak dia punya turn nak mengunyah hahaha

No husband=no cooking. Off we went to KFC when suddenly my friend called to pick up Frederik. Rushing makan sbb takut lambat.

Off went for some walk and photo shoot with the kids. They loved it altho it was nothing and only for awhile. Should bring them out to do this kind of thing more often. Sbb dgn bapaknya mintak maap lar kan..other than groceries, restaurant, tu je lar. Pastu kalau ada mood barulah gi bowling ker. (Ni kira complain neh ekekekek).

Beautiful weather with magnific view, MasyaAllah.

Keluar sempoi mcm ni pun diorang dah cukup suka.
Sayangnya tak terhingga kat korang semua. Jade ni kalau berjalan, sikit punya suka.

Girls power.

Ida, you make me smile.

Off to do some lil groceries. Kena start berbajet skang nih, planning for the future, semoga dipermudahkan. Have to stop shopping too much. Gotta think of my future and the kids as well.

Jade chez grandparents.

LOVE YOU, KIDS

2011-12-01T21:42:00.001+01:00

My "alarm clock" bangun tepat pd waktunya so no more sleeping. Not long after, abg bangun followed by kakak.

Ida wanting to go to the basement directly for drawing but insisted on her to hv breakfast. A pleasure to her appreciating what i hv done for them in the basement.

Am in the mood utk mengemas non stop...kinda like this. House is almost neat n proper..floor smells good. Clean house makes u happy n healthy.

Altho far from finish.

Frederick arrived around 3pm I guess, overnite at our place as his parents has an invitation with Unesco. Adam suda kena warning, takde nak ajak kawan datang or tido rumah lagi dah. Nasib baik Frederick ni baik orangnya n rajin so no problem. Jade nangis pun dia yg sibuk nak tolong diamkan. Yg abg ngan kakak sendiri plak sibuk main.

School holiday's over soon, am already feeling sad to know that they won't be there durng the day, left only me and Jade.

It's true that I do complain about them but i can't lie too that they light up my life. The house is in order. Honestly they are wonderful kids and I love them so much. Their laughter, their smile, their joyness and happiness

BELLE EPINE

2011-11-30T21:33:00.001+01:00

Bath time for girls, with a pesanan from kak Ida to Jade "Jade, jangan belak dlm air yer"

Yeaaaaaa hari ini kita keluar yeaaaa. Rasa mcm lama tak keluar, terperap kat umah 24hours with hubby n kids, never ending housework, office work, mmg bisa meroyan lar kalau mcm ni.

So off we went to Belle Epine, had lunch at a japanese restaurant, we were hungry like a wolf, eaten a lot. I just love that sushi roll with thon and avocat. Jade was sleeping on the way, were hoping to have a quiet lunch when suddenly while having lunch half way "tinggg" mata dia pun terbukak sambil dgn garangnya looking at us and our mouth hu huuuuuu. Bottle of milk with cereal for her. Only one bottle as we r going out. Uncomfortable for me to bf in public. Dah berapa lama tak minum botol ni, kekadang risau jugak dia taknak. Sib baik semua dia wallap hu huuuu.

Budak dua orang ni kalau keluar, mulalah dah start main kejar kejar. Berkali kali remind Adam, umur dah berapa ni, tak malu ke orang tengok, sekejap jer dia stop, pastu dia sambung balik. Mmg pening kepala but hubby keep on telling me "let them, they are happy to be out, let them be".

Groceries time. Cik adik punyala suka kena dukung, excited tengok abg ngan kakak lari sana lari sini. Siap nak gigit mak dia tu, sib baik takde gigi so cuma rasa geli.

She slept at 8pm, just like yesterday. Peaceful time for me to settle the basement. Berpeluh gak lar but i am so happy with the result. Almost neat now and the two kids were so happy with it and started to lay down there, drawing. Keep saying and telling their father how cool the place is now. Didnt want to leave to sleep later on. Sejuk hati dan gembira tengok. Tak sia sia berpenatan mcm nih.

FRIEND AT HOME

2011-11-30T21:28:00.000+01:00

Despite the change of hour (less 1hour), Jade slept well and so was I.

Joshline asked me yesterday if she can leave Frederick with us as she has to pick up a friend at the airport. She left Lei Ming with another turc friend that she has just known. Brought along only Aiden. Frederick was so happy, playing with the computer most of the time.

Joshline picked him up around 9pm.

Hubby sent Adam to his arabic class and i picked him later with Ida and Frederick. No class next week, raya haji, punyalah suka si adam.

Mengemas, itu adalah my routine. Jade is drinking less amount now since I start giving her yogurt. So i must say that bf ing isnt that hard. You just need to sacrifice your time for the first 3mths as your baby cant take solid food yet but once she starts eating it, it will be more easier. Regret plak tak enjoy it till the limit in the beginning.

Jade slept at 8pm, peaceful time for me to start setting in order the basement till 11pm. Never ending housework from morning till nite.

STAY AT HOME DAY

2011-11-29T21:21:00.000+01:00

Jade woke up at 5am to drink then at 6.30am. At 7.30am, she decided to not sleep anymore so there she goes singing "aaaaa...aaaa...aaaa"

She is such an angel, letting do my things while she lay down there on the floor, playing alone. Lucky some people could sleep till close to 9am, just go down and breakfast is ready. Still not realise how lucky.

Jade played in the water with kak Ida as usual. And this would be the second time she did her poo in the water, dgn bangganya. First heard proot so I thought it was just a fart. Bertuah punya anak. Dah dua kali ni. Lain kali takleh biarkan dlm air lelama. Suka bebeno berak dlm air yer. Of course i cant be angry at her. I can never be angry at her. Such an angel like that, the way she look and smile at me, can never be angry.

Oh how i love you Jade, i love you Jade. I cant stop kissing you Jade...how you smells so good, your chubbiness just make me wanna squeeze you. I wish you can stay baby like this forever coz you are just so adorable.

Sleeping pattern changing especially when the two are at home, bikin havoc. But she slept from 12noon till 2pm, leaving me peaceful to prepare and have lunch.

Was a stay at home day. Hubby left with Adam to Port Saintry coz hubby wanting to put his radio. I on the other hand, just have enough of the boat thing. Boat, boat, boat...really hv enough.

My helper in the kitchen.

ALHAMDULILLAH

2011-11-28T21:11:00.000+01:00

Jade slept at 10pm and woke up at 6.30am, slept till 7.30pm .. then refused to sleep, keep doing the sound "aaaaaa ... aaaa" sampai daku takleh tido.

Alhamdulillah Allah kurniakan anak anak yg boleh diharap jugaklah jaga adik. Terutamanya kak Ida, bila mengagah adik dia, mmg sungguh kelakar. Dia punya script sebijik mcm mak dia punya script. Yg tak tahan tu dia punya memek muka pun nak tiru mak dia... daku pun leh ketawa tengok, apatah lagi Jade.

Then masa jaga adik, she eagerly wanted to show Jade the book that she brought from next door. Pretty interesting. Jade looked for awhile then started to turn her head right and left .. probably searching for me. So Ida went singing :
"Taknak tengok suda, nama ko Lolah, tetek ko sebelah"

Jade hardly sleep during the day. Probably 30minutes only for 3 times. Due to abang and kakak yg bikin havoc nih lar apa lagi.

At 5.30pm she couldnt help it anymore, melalak tak hengat while we were having teatime.

Day time becoming shorter and shorter. Will be a good time ganti puasa, insyaAllah.

CHAMPS ELYSEES

2011-11-27T22:02:00.000+01:00

Jade who has slightly fever and vomit before going to bed, slept with us. She wasnt that lasak but keep on mengigau or merengek. Mesti tak sedap badan sayang mama ni. Sakit pinggangku tido tak selesa, sempit sih.

Off we went to Champs Elysees... before that hubby went to a place not far away to see the shooting place that will be done in 2 weeks time. Ramainya umat kat Champs Elysees today.. tak pernah tengok ramai camni.

Had lunch at a Japanese restaurant .. which was so-so. Went there coz it was less people.. now we know why. The kids got something from the Disney store.

No shopping mood .. I know why :
1. Pakcik cerewet was there to kill my mood
2. Poket kering, ujung bulan

Lambatnya Jade tido ari nih. Yelah abg ngan kakak bikin havoc, tido asyik terbangun jer. Mcm ni lar bila cuti sekolah. Diorang tido lambat, bila adik dah tido, diorang naik atas buat bising, dah terjaga adik dia. Nasib baik bapak kamu yg prepare dinner heheheh.

VACCIN

2011-11-26T21:54:00.001+01:00

Vaccin time for Jade. Went to Pmi. Got the usual pediatrician that treated Adam and Ida. Adorable old man..really adorable, nothing to see with doctor Nera.

Jade on the other hand was so happy to be there, a place full of colors, get to her attention. Then there was another baby. A month younger than her. Jade was so happy to see her, getting excited with a voice like calling the baby. Ida followed me, was happy to be there too. Altho she has plenty up to date toys at home, she still enjoy the out to date toys here.

My little baby Jade put on weight. She is now 7.860kg, like 700g in a mth. Adorable doctor, Jade didnt cry bila kena inject.

We left to Port Saintry as hubby wanted to do something with his boat. Nak pasang radio and speakers pulak. Invited Frederick and also Aiden.

It was rather cold weather. Jade slept quite a long time, must be the effect of the injection. I could sleep like 10min I guess, feeling so tired. We left around 6.30pm, sent the two kids directly altho they were hoping to return to our place to play.

Jade started to be grumpy at nite, sleeping pretty late. Slightly fever. Gave her doliprane. 30min later upstairs after changing her into pyjama, she vomit. Pretty a lot. Sleeping late. Hope you feel better tomorrow, my little angel.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR FRIEND

2011-11-25T21:51:00.000+01:00

Jade woke up pretty late, around 8am. The kids were ready around noon, we left around 1pm and had lunch outside. Jade oh Jade, dah bagi susu pun, bila orang makan, dia tenung perghhh menusuk kalbu lar. Nak makan lar pastu grumpy. Next time have to bring something for her.

We left for groceries at Auchan. Then off back home. Hubby left to wash his boat with Hugo. Kononnya lar tu. Dah masuk ke 4kali ni pegi, mesti ada halangan.

So busy preparing for the surprise birthday celebration. Waited about 30minutes only to find out that she was waiting for me at her place! Miscommunication.

Happy birthday to my dear friend, may all your dreams come true and that you be blessed everyday in your life. I thank God that I have met a friend like you.

Jade was pretty happy to see her. She was sleeping in the veranda and was awake like 30min later. Always admire the way she handles Jade. Takde kekok langsung. Mcm anak sendiri and she perfectly know what to do. If Jade cries, she wouldnt give it directly to me, she will succeed to make Jade stop crying. I really admire this.

HUNTING

2011-11-24T22:02:00.000+01:00

My little Jade slept around 9pm lastnite and left mommy sleeping the whole nite till 6.30am. She continued sleeping in our bed, could feel papa's beside, with her hand pulling papa's cover, feeling assured that papa's there so she continued sleeping till 9am.

Great to be awake early, get ready early and off by walk to the bakery shop, only to find out that it's close on Monday. Nasib baik ada kedai runcit pak arab, beli baguette, croissants and pain au chocolat.

The kids were ready pretty late, the last one was Adam, at 12noon. Good, been forcing them to finish their meal each time now, like it or not. And this morning they have to finish pain au chocolat each with hot chocolate milk. Good for them to start the day.

We left to Croix Blanche to find a present for Joshline's birthday tomorrow. Damn, the cake shop is close on Monday grrrrrrrr. We had lunch at kebab next door then off to buy the present. Headed straight to Port Saintry, hubby wanted to wash his boat which never done, only to find out that they were 2 boats queuing.

Went for a little boat tour instead, Adam did some fishing and caught one. He was so proud to show me. Bravo my boy. I realise that I keep on scolding him now a days, being very tough on him. I feel bad. I will try to change this, help pls Ya Allah. Coz it hurts inside to see him feeling angry and frustrated and scared each time Im having my temper (which is becoming frequent now).

Even with Ida, I should be nicer. But both of them are just so energetic together, lari sana lari sini bila keluar. Pastu mengadu ngadu tak abis abis, mana nak handle Jade lagi, pening aaa.

As for Jade, she enjoyed the boat ride so much and wide awake. You lucky girl. Must have feel it when she was in my tummy, doing boat ride many times. She fell asleep on the way back and continued sleeping at home when I brought her upstairs. Senangnya bila dia tido.

I have to do groceries tomorrow and think of what to do for her to eat. Today, tak bagi apa apa for lunch, punyalah dia mengamuk, bagi susu pun mcm taknak, nak jugak makan hu huuuuuuuu.

NO MARKET

2011-11-23T21:52:00.000+01:00

Buah hati pengarang jantung woke up at 5.30am to drink then at 7am, she doesnt want to sleep anymore. Sayang oh sayangggg tak bagi mama tido panjang yer weekend.

No sunday market. Segala galanya jadi lambat bila maknya mandi lambat. Seriously next time, I have to take a shower the first one. Rasa basi, kusam, masam, cina mati laki dan segala galanya lah. Kerja semua jadi lambat, rasa tembel jer huhhhh. Nak gi market pun tak sempat, nak siapkan anak dara dua orang ni lagi dah kul berapa. Tidokan cik embam lagi.

So homemade lunch. Will try to eat outside lesser. Kena start budget skarang ni. Hubby just complained to me how much he spent since I came back from Malaysia. Nak kecik hati ke taknak ek.

He sent Adam to klass ugama. I fetched him later on, dropped by at Joshline's house for the most tasty ice blended coffee in town. Brought nasi goreng ayam for her. Bukan lenggang kangkung bawak telur jer yer ... eh mana ada telur.

In the beginning Jade was crying. Alamak apa ni Jade bikin malu. I took her to calm her down so she was ok later on when Joshline carried her. She was in love with Lei Ming though.

When Mr hubby prepares dinner ... no cooking required. So easy huh.

KIDS EXPO

2011-11-22T21:43:00.000+01:00

This was the day that Adam been waiting for. Been more than 2 weeks he's bothering us for this.

Some of the pics on that day. Kes malas nak menulis miahahahah.

Mama's princess
Mama's little angel with the clothes bought by Auntie Dewi.

MY TURN

2011-11-21T22:31:00.000+01:00

I knew it ... from the beginning ... that it will be my turn. Idung dah gatal gatal, tekak dan lelangit dah rasa semacam. Confirm... Jade passed me the virus ... thank you Jade ... I love you too, angel.

Jade slept till 5am, alhamdulillah. I got enough rest. But then again, jadi full sampai leaking. Puas si Jade minum, rezeki mu yer nak.

As usual, rush lagi nak siapkan budak budak. Alangkah bahagianya kalau papanya tolong siapkan sekali. Probably he's tired for the past few days, and the stress with work, plus coming back late. So cant really complaining. Sib baik he sent the kids to school..otherwise rasanya "blood go upstairs" kut.

Feeling sick and it was bloody cold, below 0°. Tak tau lar sbb tak sihat, rasa menggigil badan. Last last after lunch, berselubung bawah selimut sambil bf Jade and both of us fell asleep for the next 2hours. Ada jer yg call kan itu jam. Dan daku tgh siok tido, Jade plak terbangun, isk isk isk.

Hubby came back around 4pm and could take the kids from school. Jade had some sort of mix biscuit and my BM this morning, a bottle of milk with cereal in the afternoon and mix of biscuit and my BM for teatime. My girl has finished everything! Of course mak dia paksa kan so terpaksa dia bukak mulut wakakak. Because of this, she was so tired and slept at 7pm. Wow, back to your old sleeping pattern my girl. This is good coz I can do lot of things when she's sleeping.

Could prepare dinner quietly, did some ironing. Good, alhamdulillah.

Adam came back with his evaluation result. French subject he got 20 and math 17.5
Just a silly mistake, not writing S in the end, resulting him to have less mark grrrrr. He told me becoz he was rushing to finish. Berapa kali dah mama pesan sayang oiii.

Hubby changed my reward list for Adam for his mark but im gonna change it later. Byk lar sgt dia letak from 16 dpt 1Euros, 17, 18 and 19 dpt 4Euros, 20 dapat 10Euros. In which I think too much. I will add up new one, if he gets less than 15, he owes us 1Euro.

As for Ida, rajinnya dia tolong bersihkan office. Dia ni buah hati bapak dia nih. Abis meja mak dia pun dia bersihkan.. terimakasih ya sayang.

Senangnya kerja bila ada robot vacum cleaner nih. Makin jadi pemaleh lar daku hu huuuuu. Thanx to hubby for buying me this.

The kids spent their time at grandpa's. Hubby took Jade too. Relax sket mak dia. Time for me to breath altho it lasted not even an hour.

SECOND DAY

2011-11-20T22:16:00.001+01:00

Second day of not having enough sleep. My little Jade's nose was blocked, resulting her to be awake every now and then during the nite. 2am then bf her. 5.30am, bf her again, she slept tido tido ayam till 7am. I had to rush to prepare the kids, the breakfast.

Jade's changing her sleeping pattern now. Sleeping later and later. When usually she sleeps at 11am for at least 2hours, dah bf pun tak tido tido lagi. Kul 1pm baru tido. So I could prepare lunch and vacum the veranda. Byk sangat benda nak buat. Kerja rumah lagi, kerja office lagi. My desk in the office lagi bersepah sepah ngan documents.

Had to wake up Jade, it was 2.30pm, she continued sleeping in the car. Off we went to Croix Blanche. Yg kelakarnya, masa tgh queue nak byr kat counter, dia terbangun and terpandang muka pak arab kat belakang, terus muka cembeng nak nangis so I immediately call her "hey Jade, Jade, Jade, mommy's here, mommy's here". Terus senyum hehehehe. 4 bulan dah kenal orang ker nak oii.

Finally hubby bought me the robot vacum cleaner. Then went to Esprit shop, shopping for me. Hubby insisted on buying another jacket for Ida despite me telling him she already got few and dont need another one. He wanted to buy for Jade there but there wasnt for little baby. So off we went to another shop, found one;

I am trying really hard to not speak french to the kids. I regret it that I speak less and less english to the kids coz I often speak english with them when they were small. That's why with Jade, Im trying to speak more english with her, with a hope that she will speak english.

Teruk betul beringus Jade ni. Puas spray and sedut. Entah berapa kali dalam sehari. Hope she will feel better soon. Makan still mcm biasalah tapi. Embam mama nih.

As my little boy ... quite adorable on today. Taking care of Jade who was left by his father who gave up as she keeps on crying while I was preparing dinner. Pandai Adam jaga adik, terus diam Jade.

As for my little girl ... so happy with her new jacket. Jaga adik when I was doing Isyak that Jade fell asleep not long after.

This is no joke. Few times I did this. Was alone with Jade and I really have to do my prayer. So I said out loud "Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, jagalah anakku ini, agar dapat aku mengerjakan solat ku. Wahai malaikat malaikat, lihatlah anakku ini agar dapat aku mengerjakan solatku".

Surprisingly, Jade didnt cry at all and was playing alone. The moment I have finished, then only she started to be grumpy. Syukur alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah and your angels for looking up after my baby.

Mama love you all so much.

JADE AND FLU

2011-11-19T22:07:00.000+01:00

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku. I dont think there is something wrong with what I have said yesterday "alhamdulillah, so far so good, being a bf baby, Jade hardly get sick" I said something like this .. and voila she's has flu with nose block. Dugaan mu kah ini ya Allah.

She woke up like 3 times during the nite that I decided to make her sleep with me. In the end, it was me who was uncomfortable to sleep, scared of waking her up. In the daku yg sakit sakit badan. Almost getting angry then I remember reading an article about ganjaran yg diberikan pada ibu yg breastfeed anak, berkorban utk anak, melayan anak dgn sabar ketika anak sakit etc. Terus tak jadi marah so layan je Jade nih. My poor little Jade.

Went for a walk to the bakery shop to buy breakfast. Weather was cold. Jade's sleeping pattern dah lar bertukar. Yesterday nite she slept only at 9.30pm. Terkacau sikit jer sleeping time, terus lari timing. Semlm Joshline datang masa time dia nak tido, tu yg in the end tido lambat.

On today patut 10.30am dah tido for at least 2hours, on today, 30min dah bangun. Nasib baik susukan, lepas tu tido from 11am till 2pm. Making it easy to prepare lunch. Sedapnya nasi lemak gorengku hu huuu. Till the extend, kunyah kunyah pun sayang nak telan miahahahah.

Jadi mak supir ari nih. Menganto Frederick for karate class at 2pm then 3pm ambik dia and anto Adam. Then at 4pm, ambik Adam plak. Could talk to Yohan about Adam as Adam is in a period of trying in this upper group. So far so good says Yohan .

Went back for Adam to change his clothes and play for awhile with his friend, then sent Frederick home. Started to rain pretty heavy so off we went to Croix Blanche for some shopping at a DIY shop, hubby's favourite shop. Penat tengok Adam ngan Ida ni lari sana lari sini.

Pose sebelum lari sana lari sini.1hour later Jade plak started to cry. 6.30pm. Aaaahhhh mmg time dia merengek utk minum and tido.

Second day of full bf. Am proud of me.

CLEANING

2011-11-18T22:08:00.000+01:00

Duit blh dicari..kesabaran mana nak cari kalau x dtgnya usaha dari diri sendiri? Wahai anak anakku, maafkanlah mak kamu ini dikala kesabarannya tiada ketika menangani kerenah kamu semua.

Duhai anakku Adam, duhai anakku Ida. Mama admit, mama xde masa sepenuhnya utk kamu berdua. Mama bergantung pada kamu berdua utk mintak tolong. Kadangkala bila dah kepenatan melayan Jade, kamu berdua jadi tempat melepasan rasa marah.

Maafkanlah mama duhai anakkku.

It was rather a busy day cleaning the veranda for me. Besides, Jade my little angel slept 3hours, leaving that precious time for me. The result is very satisfying, the kids immediately played in the veranda, such a pleasure to see this. Still havent finish cleaning and setting up things completely but at least im on the way.

"Lihat pinggangkeww .. ramping kannn"

Frederick slept over at our place. Adam ni bila ada kawan datang rumah, agak tak baik dgn adik dia Ida. Can make me angry looking at him like that. Byk kali told him takde nak ajak kawan dtg rumah lagi. Mmg fed up.

Ida plak keep on following the boys. Main gormitti pun dia sebok nak main. Tapi one thing, how adorable she can be each time she plays with Jade. Sometimes when I see them, I doubt I can make Jade laugh as much as Ida's did.

When they grow up and when they fight with each other (which is very normal between sisters), I will remind this precious moment to them. Of how Ida adores her little sister, of how Jade's face lighten up each time she sees her big sister.

PONTENG

2011-11-17T22:03:00.000+01:00

Wow Jade. Woke up only at 6am, slept again till 8am! Good girl you are, Jade.

Ida coughed really badly that she ended up vomiting in the bathroom two times. Nasib baik in the bath tub. Kalau idak, satu kerja nak mengelap lantai.

Hubby left at 5.30am so no choice, have to send Adam to school.

Sent Adam then off to Lidl for groceries. Water, juices, salad.

Aikkk balik rumah terus sihat si Ida. Siap berkarate lar dia, berjoget lar dia, hamboi hamboi. Must be the medicine that Ive given her this morning.

Very peaceful time. Jade slept after her bath, from 10.30am till 1.30pm!! I can dry my clothes, I can cook, I can set in order the table, I can eat peacefully with Ida. What else can I ask for? Syukur alhamdulillah. Thanx Jade.

Could even prepare lunch for hubby and the workers who came back around 2pm. Bila daku dah makan dulu, maka takde lar berangin dan maka dpt lah serve suami tercinta (cewah) tip top service. Time Jade tidolah mmg kena rush makan.

So later on, she slept like only 15min while I was bf-ing her, that's it. Fell asleep pretty late on today around 8.00pm.

(Jade with big bro). Tular dulu masa Jade dlm perut kata tak suka. Skarang ni, dia jugak yg in love ngan adik dia kan.

TIME MANAGEMENT

2011-11-16T21:37:00.000+01:00

I was singing "jade, jade, batu jade" when i heard ida singing in her room "jade, jade, jade gemuk".

My angel Jade is some kind of my alarm clock, waking lazy me for Subuh. In a way, I really appreciate it, dear.

Adam : ida, what will u do if ur head is chocolate
Ida : Wow great, i will eat all my head yum yumm

Oh weekend, thought I can sleep longer but that's long over ever since Jade was born. Nevermind the sacrifice. So brought her to room next door, arranged the iron clothes while she was busy looking at me and playing at the same time.

Two days of out of schedule and this disturbed Jade's sleeping pattern. This morning when she was suppose to sleep at 10.30am, she couldnt sleep coz after preparing them, I headed with Ida to the sunday market. Wanted to bring her in the beginning but it was too cold. Plus, Im just gonna rush to buy things, taking her meaning, stroller in, stroller out, wrap her etch, will take extra time.

Ole ole utk kakakku.

When I came back less than one hour after, grandma was sitting like a robot with her sleeping in her arms. Kes takut dia terbangun if she moves Jade to the sofa.

So took her back, she continued sleeping for 30min, time for me to rush to prepare lunch, urged Adam to do his homework before going to class ugama. Next time mmg kena suruh buat immediately lepas balik class. Sib baik bak kacang yg dikunyah. Suruh hafal al fatihah, ni mmg dah pass lar kan. Then to read the history of Prophets. Hubby sent him on today as I had to entertain Jade who was already hungry.

Time management, have to line this out ASAP.

Hubby prepared his materials for a shooting tomorrow then left with the two guys to set up everything. Went to take Adam with my two girls. Then off to Joshline's place to give her some food plus chit chatting with that best ice blended coffee in town!

Gigih meng express dimalam hari when the kids fast asleep.

WRONG TIMING

2011-11-15T22:14:00.001+01:00

Jade woke up at 4am and at 7.30am she was fully awake. So brought her to the kids room while I was setting in order the clothes that I have ironed lastnite, after doing subuh. Prepared breakfast. Jade eaten one yogurt. She was feeling tired at her normal hour which is 10am. Took a bath with abg Adam on today as kak Ida was running out of time for her karate lesson.

Ida will change group to the group that Adam's in now. Altho that group is starting from 8yrs old. As for Adam, he will try to be in a group ahead which is 11yrs and above. Coz the group he is now, terlampau ramai white belt. Not good for him coz Peggy's teaching them the basic karate in which Adam already know. Better move ahead. So will see on Monday and Wednesday how it goes.

What a long day. Picnic at the boat, hubby wanted to wash his boat but his machine just wouldnt want to work. Then tayar remorque plak block satu. Dah satu hal. Lost close to 2hours there, baru dpt letak boat back in the water. Pretty cold weather but we did few tours anyway. Jade was well behaved. Tak nangis pun, just excitedly looking here and there.

Then we left to Carre Senart as I told hubby i want to do shopping. No shopping for me, instead, more for Jade. The two kids got something from the toy's shop.

I must remember this, no more going out in the evening. Terlupa plak timing tido si Jade at 7.30pm. Dah lari dah...patut lar at 6.30pm melalak tak hengat. Rupanya menyusu and tido time hu huuuu.

No more going out in the evening...sila duduk rumah diam diam yer.

FOR YOUR OWN GOOD

2011-11-14T21:58:00.000+01:00

Sayang mama Jade, syukur alhamdulillah Ya Allah anak ini tak banyak ragam and I pray that tak banyaklah ragam bila dia membesar. She woke up around 5.30am only. Fed her and let her sleep in our bed. I could sleep for awhile. Kiranya tido tido ayam gitu sbb at 6.30am, alarm clock dah berbunyi.

Beratnya mata nih, tunda another 5min lah, then another 5 lah .. till at 7am, was awake by Ida, calling me from her room, "maman, maman". When I came, she told me she had a dream that she was in a boat.

Nowadays since we stock up the refrigerator with lots of yogurt, they only have that for breakfast. Mmg senang mak kamu takyah prepare anything utk kamu dipagi hari. Just prepare utk King and Queen jer, ahaks. Oh ya lupa .. utk Oggy jua, yg menunggu kat luar tingkap.

Dia ni kiranya kotor lar. Apa taknya tido kat timbunan daun kering mana ntah, golek golek kat rumput mana ntah. Bukanlah kotor apa, since dia nibulu agak panjang jugak, semuanya tersangkut pastu dia bawak balik. Pastu bila dah kenyang, suka nak lepak kat katil kitorang yg maha gebu dah ku kemas dipagi hari tu. Banyak cantek. Dah tuannya pulak tido ngan bulu kamu lagi, kekotoran yg kamu bawak balik lagi.

So pintu bilik sentiasa tertutup, in the end dia tido kat veranda. Ada sekali terlepas pintu bukak, tetiba dia panjat atas katil, apa lagi kena halau lar, podachitttt.

Jade woke up at 8am, sedap yer tido kat tempat mama yer. Mau asham ketiak mak kamu power kan nak. She had her bath pretty early, fed her then off to do groceries with her at Auchan. Otw, nangis. Apalagi, dah minum kan. Then she fell asleep. Half way during my groceries, she was awake. Good mood but I had to rush, takut dia nangis. Ada few things terlupa beli lar plak. Elok jer kat cashier dia start meragam, sumbat susu yg dah ku express malam tadi.

Dari parking sampai lar kerumah dia nangis hu huuuu. Puas lar daku nyanyi, diam kejap, sambung balik, daku bercakap cakap, diam, pastu sambung balik, pastu diam. Aaaa mcm tu lar sampai ke gate rumah, baru dia melalak baek punya.

Fed her, then it was time to cook. Ari Jumaat plak tu and it was late. Daku agak berangiin gak lar. Sesapa yg dekat mmg akan kena maki hamun lar. Mana nak layan baby melalak lagi, nak set in order groceries lagi. Mmg rasa nak meletup jer. Jade mmg boleh jadi mangsa punyalah, angin kat orang lain (sbb kena masak), anak yg kena. But syukur alhamdulilah, I could control my anger. Teruknya bila marah kan, mcm mcm yg bukan bukan dikepala. Mulut mmg racun berbisa punyalah. Good jugak hubby wasnt there.

In the end daku cool down sendiri. Mengucap and looked at my beautiful angel who cried non stop. Dukung dia sambil masak. Punyalah payah. Nangis lagi. Rupanya dah tercirit. Bila tukar diaper, terus good mood. Letak balik kat kerusi baring dia, and she went quiet, playing alone all the way till I have finish my cooking. Bagus anak mama nih. With that beautiful smile that melt my heart.

Late lunch. Hugo eaten with us. Seperti biasalah kan, penat penat masak, tak dpt makan masa tu. Cik adik nangis. Yelah dah berapa lama dia behave, sengih sengih kat mak dia dgn senyuman yg menawan tu sampai mak dia abis masak, mana nak tahan sengih sampai ke petang kan. So fed her, she went to sleep, I could eat, I could pray. Elok jer abis solat ....TINGGGG

Mcm ada alarm kat kepala ko ni Jade kan. Tapi syukur, alarm itu tau timing dia bila daku dah settle semuanya. Tara kerja ari nih. Terlebih kerja rumah.

She slept at around 7am after feeding her. Only a bottle of milk for today.Semalam full bf.

I finished all my ironing. Wowwww. When last week there was like 4 full basket of clothes, now no more. Yay yayyyy. I know I can do it. Started ironing while hubby's preparing dinner with the kids. Then continued after dinner till 10pm. Fuhhh iron baru ni mmg bagi semangat gue nak menggosok baju yehaaaa. Main steam tu yg best tu ngan bunyi dia FFFFFF. Air merecik lar sikit then heard Ida saying :
"Mama, sedap lar bau air liur mama".

Huhh?? Air liur? Ni mesti silap cakap nih. Confident plak tu muka but I didnt say anything.

Adam kena rotan lagi sbb tinggal solat. Mmg naik angin. This would be the second time kena. Balik sekolah dah bagi chance, teatime. Then tengok kartun kegemaran dia Beyblade at 6pm. Pastu main, pastu melukis, pastu continue melukis kat rumah nenek dia plak. Barang tak reti nak kemas, abis dah kena letak kat luar, mak kamu mengamuk ari nih. Kan dah kena sebat ngan tali pinggang.

Downstairs, my heart ache. It hurt me so much, it hurt me so badly to do this. He is my baby. Killing me inside. I wanted to breakdown and cry coz I really feel bad doing this. But then I quickly told myself, utk mengajar dia,bukan nak menyiksa dia.

I dont want him to be like me. I want him to be better than me. I hope he understand this. l love him too much that I want him to be everything that I cant be. My dear baby boy ... mama did that for your own good.

KENYANG

2011-11-13T22:36:00.000+01:00

Waduh waduhhh Jade ... kekenyangan sayang mama ni dari 7.30pm semalam sampai 5am. Maknya yg tersiksa sbb susu dah penuh heheheh.

Then at 7am she was awake and started to play alone with that cute lil voice "aaaaa". Sempat lar solat, siapkan kakak dia. Then bf her downstairs. Senangnya anak anak mama ni (alhamdulillah), breakfast tak fussy .. memandangkan peti ais pun penuh ngan their chosen yogurt, they just took the yogurt they want for breakfast. During this time, daku bf Jade.

MIL came to ask if I want her to send the kids. Of course I said yes but Ida insisted on me sending her. Skarang ni berlemak berkrim disukai ramai, kena antar sampai class. But for you my love, it's alrite.

My usual wish for Adam before he goes to school "belajar rajin rajin kat sekolah yer, jgn lupa angkat tangan jawab soalan, baca bismillah sebelum belajar, have a good day and I love you so much". Same goes to Ida, just that cik kak ni, kena iyum iyum dan gomol dia dulu bagi mood dia naik hehehe.

Aduh nenek ni mcm lar cucu sorang. Suap cucu yogurt pun abis comot comot then kata cucu tak nak. Mak dia bagi wokay jer dia bukak mulut dia.

Could vacum and mop the floor of the kitchen and living room. Gonna attack the veranda sometime later.

Usual time for Jade, bath at 10am, pengsan at 10.30am. Tapi sekejap pulak dia tido ari nih 1hour jer. Then tido sekejap sekejap for 30min but few time.

Ni cik kiah embam.
Did mashed potatoes. She doesnt really like it. Mcm nak termuntah pun iyer. In the end bagi yogurt. Then later on for dinner, did mashed carrot. She couldnt finish everything.

Then I was thinking that probably her stomach couldn't bear to take all this food daily. She's only 4mths!! Mengucap lar maknya oiiii. So no more food for Jade for the next few days. Berak pun dah tak cair mcm usual (I miss that).

Hubby came back pretty early from the shooting, around 2.30pm and directly to his office. Sib baik dah makan, tak payah daku masak. Daku pun tak lunch, too occupied with Jade and malas. Makan popia pintal jer dah kenyang.

Hubby took back the kids from school. They were so happy to see him especially Ida.

Jade started to be grumpy at 6.30pm. Ida could take care of her while we were doing our prayer. Lama jugak lah. Bravo kak Ida. Mama sayang sgt dgn Ida nih, mmg boleh diharap. Yg tak tahan tu bunyi kelentang kelentung sandal tumit tinggi dia kat umah. Yelah lantai kan baru tukar so kuat lar bunyi lagi dia suka jalan kelentang kelentung dgn gaya perasan tengok cermin aduh aduhhh.

Adam told me how it feels good when I say doa to him before sleeping (ayat 3 kul and al fatihah) sambil usap usap kepala dia. Will try to do this everyday to both him and Ida sbb Jade jer yg selalu dapat... ni kes mak dia tak pandai manage time lar nih ...sigh.

BABY FOOD

2011-11-12T21:55:00.000+01:00

Hari ini dlm sejarah in Jade's life. She first tasted the yogurt .... and she loved it!! Nowadays, she keep on looking at us when we are eating so this morning after I had my breakfast, gave her to taste the yogurt and she finished everything!

She only slept like 1 hour the longest. Then like 30minutes, 2 times and that's it!! Am still setting in order bit by bit. The kitchen and living room started to be in a mess now. Didnt have time to vacum and mop the floor. Hopefully will have time tomorrow.

Was kinda stressing day. Hubby left for a shooting with Mgp at Creteil and came back only for dinner, around 8pm.

Karate lesson for Adam. Today, agak moody sikit. Asyik kena marah jer budak budak ni especially si Adam hmmm. Barang suka tak kemas. Then asyik tanya mak dia and keep on insisting sampai mak dia jawab. Sgt sgt penat nak jawab.

Jade had another yogurt for teatime. Pun abis jugak. Muka puas hati jer. Oh Jade. Bau poo mu mmg menjadi pojaaaan hati kewww. I steamed some carrot and potatoes. Tonite's menu for Jade, mashed carrot. Mmg sedap carrot ni. Then add up bit of my milk. She finished the whole bowl!! My goodness, Jade! I dont even know if she doesnt want coz she keeps on opening her mouth!!

At 6.30pm she started to be tired and at 7am after changing her into pyjama and fed her, she fell asleep. 30min later heard her merengek but I ignored so she continued sleeping. Sukanya tengok dia makan abis what I did. So gonna do a menu for her everyday. At the moment vegies and buah buahan jelar dulu yer Jade. Meat tu kena tunggu besar sikit yer sayang.

Ni melalak tak hengat sbb nak susu n tido.

Aaaaaahh .. byk benda boleh buat bila dia tido. Antaranya ialah melayan anak anak lagi dua orang yg kurang mendapat perhatian during the day hahahaha. Prepared them dinner and had it with them while chit chatting.

Adam : mama, where will we end up if we enter the "black hole"?(after looking at the documentary n bout bermuda triangle)

Ida : dans tes fesses (in ur butt)
Nak marah tp terketawa plak. Mcm mcm anak anak ni kan

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER

2011-11-11T21:45:00.000+01:00

Happy birthday to my sister dearie ... my enemy, my one and only sister... my bestfriend. I pray that Allah shower you with His blessings and that you are happy with your life here, and hereafter. Love you sis!

My little Jade was awake at 5am ... mcm jam plak ek automatically kul 5 jer bangun. Fed her, she slept for awhile then woke up to play. Mak dia nyalakan lampu sikit jer nak tengok muka dia, leh nampak dlm gelap dia tersengeh. Oh sengihan yg buat hati ku cayaq. Tak cukup tido pun takper bila tengok senyuman dia.

Fed her again at 6am and she fell asleep next to papa till 9am!! Amboi amboi komer semua. Daku kena prepare breakfast, settlekan budak budak and anto gi sekolah, komer sedap jer membuta yer.

Hubby left for a shooting at 11.30am. As Jade slept pretty long on today, tido pun kurang during the day. When I expect her to sleep at least 2hour after her bath, she slept only 1hour, tu pun duk merengek rengek.

Oggy ni bukan main lagi, daku dah kemas katil baek punya, semuanya neat, dia dah makan minum, terus mengorok the whole day kat katil. Kena tepuk tepuk lagi, dah bulu dia ada kat katil plak.

Jade oh Jade ... sudah kenal muka orang. This would be the second time Joshline carried her and she cried, looking at me with that cembeng mouth. Oh dear. But Joshline knows exactly how to handle her so she stopped after awhile.

Gave her only a bottle of milk on today. Mcm kekenyangan dia, sungguh happy sengih sana sengih sini then duk buat suara "aaaaaa". Sgtlah kiut miut (anak sendiri mestilah puji kan).

SLEEPING DAY

2011-11-10T23:05:00.000+01:00

Jade sayang mama, awalnya kamu bangun kan. Kul 5am dah bangun, nyusu then tido sekejap. 7am mama bersiap, kamu pun dah bangun sekali. Hari ni mama rasa sungguh tak cukup tido lar Jade.

Maka dgn itu Jade pun turun bawah sekali tengok tv sementara abg ngan kakak breakfast nak gi sekolah. Jade tahan sampai 10am, then bath time, body massage, minum dan Jade pengsan for 1hour saja hari nih.

Penat sgt rasa on today. Dgn cuaca mcm ni lagi, mendung jer, hati pun jadi mendung. Mengorok mmg best lar and that's what I did. Ive almost finish the 3rd trimester documents, just need to touch up a lil bit here and there so takde lar rushing. Kiranya membuta day ari ni with Jade. So so penat.

Hubby already left to MGP for a shooting before that. So I went to take the kids from school. Jade melalak tak hengat bila auntie dukung dia, and keep on looking at me. Takkan lar dah kenal, taknak kat orang Jade oi. I dont think so. I think most probably haus. Minum jelah kojo ko kan Jade.

Ida oh Ida ... you are so pretty, mama love you so much. With those big round eyes looking at me. Mulut pot pet tu mmg tak tahan lar kan apa nak buat. Tapi bila dia bodek mak dia perghhh cayaq hati.

As for my little boy .. test on today. French subject of course. For once, hubby was being really "garang" with him, suruh buat revision lastnite where normally dia ambik endah tak endah jer. Bapak selalu kamcing mcm kekawan kan, aaa sekali bapak dia garang, kecut telur dibuatnya wakakakak.

MOTIVATION

2011-11-09T22:56:00.000+01:00

When anyone was sleeping longer during this cold Sunday, I was the one to be up early. Got so many things to do and cant afford to lose my time.

Seperti biasalah kan si Oggy ni .. menyiapkan makanan dia plak grrr daku nak rush pepagi, marinate satay lagi, mengemas dapur lagi, prepare breakfast lagi.

So satay it was for lunch, requested by Adam. Satay ayam turki giteww. Cold weather so ini satay dlm frying pan ajerk ihih hih hih. But was delicious enough for me.

Sent my little boy to his arabic class. Syahdu dgn dia ni sbb tak membantah pun when it's time to go. Keep on complimenting him of how a good boy he is, will have good points to go to paradise coz he's going to learn about Islam. Ni kira motivation lar nih.

Peluk cium dulu sebelum lepaskan dia, pesan belajar pandai pandai, jgn lupa jawab soalan, balik karang mama bawak cookies. Hati ni mcm luluh tengok pandangan dia masa nak tinggalkan. Especially bila tengok orang sekeliling hmmmm. Gi belajar ugama ni, tapi perangai still haprak, cemana.. no manners pun yer gak hmmmm. Takperlar nak, kita nak menimba ilmu so who cares about the others?

My little Jade slept at her usual hour (almost), after her bath with kak Ida. Body massaged baek punya, bf then she fell asleep for almost 3hours, mmg peaceful time utk mak dia prepare lunch, anto abg Adam gi class, balik, elok jer mak dia langkah masuk dia nangis... boleh bau ketiak mak kamu dari jauh yer Jade.

As for my little princess, mengekor jer mana mak dia pegi. Anto abg nak ikut, ambik abg pun nak ikut. Then masa nak ambik, dia pun sebok kata nak pakai tudung. Remind mama lain kali yer nak yer sebelum pegi.

Jade fell asleep at 8.30pm. Mcm lama plak nak tido malam ni altho at 7.30pm dia dah kepenatan and merengek.

BABY OH BABY

2011-11-08T22:46:00.000+01:00

Jade woke up at 5am, bf her, she fell asleep in my bed. Put her back in her bed. At 7.30am, after bf her, she doesnt want to sleep anymore so she played alone while I was finishing my things. Then took her in the bathroom where she just enjoying looking at her mom putting on her make up.

She was so adorable this morning. Really in a good mood, looking and smiling at anyone. Left to send Ida for karate.

Jade had her bottle of milk with papa. She didnt finish it. So pretty late shower on today around 10.30am. Usual routine after bath, body massage, bf her then she fell asleep for 2hours. Leaving me peaceful to do some cooking.

Asian menu hari ni yer wahai suami dan anak anak. Steam fish, ginger chicken with carrot and potatoes, telur dadar. Surprisingly, hubby loved it. If only you can see Adam's face, terkulat kulat makan, geram dan sakit hati sgt. Berkali kali try nak mintak lepas sbb tak abis and tak suka. Berkali kalinya jugak kena warning. Last warning that worked, tak abis makan, punish duduk dlm bilik dan yg paling pentingnya JGN HARAP NAK PEGI COMPETITON BEYBLADE.

Aaaa bila dgr tak leh gi competition, terkulat kulat lar dia menelan. As for Ida, rupa jer ikut byk bapak dia, tapi malaysian taste ok. She loved the fish, keep asking more and finished her plate. Good girl anak mama.

Cold weather. Even colder than yesterday, windy and rainy. The house feels so cold too especially upstairs. Kena make the heater work.

We left to Croix Blanche, hubby went to the big DIY shop, I waited in the car as Jade was sleeping after I bf her. The two kids followed him and came back with two big casing for their toys. Kalau pasal membeli, kat DIY shop pun jadi.

But papa promised to buy them toys so off we went to Toys r Us. Adam didnt buy gasing coz he has all that was sold at the shop and he prefers to buy online where no one has it. Yg geramnya, siap tanya harga berapa mainan si Ida, sbb dia nak accumulate and order on the net. Sakit hati jer bila each time mcm ni. Mcm berkira pun yer gak.

Oh my little Jade... I love you so much.
I love your smell
I love your smile
I love the smell of your poo
I love everything about you .. I love you, I love you Jade.

So when I read in the newspaper about a father who "liwat" his 23 days old baby, it makes me feel so sad, then looked at Jade, this news just make me wanna cry. What's wrong with my people? More and more cases everyday... first buang baby, then bunuh baby... skarang ni liwat/rogol baby pulak. Have they gone insane? Paling memalukan, muslim plak tu. Mana nak letak muka? Mana peginya ajaran Islam yg diamalkan?? Nauzubillah dijauhkan lah dari keturunan ku Ya Allah.

Jade started to be grumpy at 7.30pm, as usual then fell asleep at 8.10pm. Peaceful time for me.

Did lot of ironing ... man, is it the machine that gives me the motivation? Ihih hih hih. 2 full baskets, another 2 to go, yehaaaaa.

HARI MENGGOMOL JADE

2011-11-07T22:49:00.000+01:00

Did grocerries in the morning with Jade, dgn tak mandinya ... Jade yer, bukan mak dia. Took me an hour to settle everything. Jade was alrite, didnt cry. Dah siap bf kat rumah, brought with me just in case, bottle of milk. Tak minum pun.

Back home was around 10am, she took a bath, body massage and off to sleep. I expect her to sleep long like yesterday but she woke up pretty early. So only 1hour for me to work in the morning.

Ida and Jade with almost the same pose. Mcm kartun pun ada muka si Ida ekekek.

Accompany hubby to Port Saintry to wash the boat. Cold weather on today, nasib baik pakai jacket. MIL took the kids again on today. We arrived home only at 5.30pm.

Hari ini adalah hari menggomol dan menggurindam Jade. Bertuah anda yer cik adik. Memandangkan terpaksa tunggu dlm keta while bapaknya basuh boat with the help of the two staff, dan memandangkan cik adik dah merengek taknak duduk dlm car seat sbb keta tak bergerak, maka ini ajelah kerja mak kamu.

Oh seronoknya bau baby.
Oh seronoknya cium mulut baby.
Oh seronoknya squeeze baby.
Oh seronoknya segala galanya about baby. Hmmmm nanti dah besar Jade nanti jgn daku meroyan nak baby sudahlah (kilang dah tutup). Coz right now honestly, I am enjoying her so much!!

Sukalah dia, kena dukung.
Sukalah dia, kena agah.
Sukalah dia bila penat, kena suap, bila kenyang, masuk atas, keluar bawah.
Sukalah dia, her mom is always there for her.

It's great that I dont ask for any help to take care of her. I try my best to take care of her on my own. Meaning I have to bring her everywhere I go. You one lucky girl!

Becoz of this, kepenatan mak kamu at the end of the day. Tertido lepas Maghrib dgn kamu yer Jade. Hubby woke me up but I told him I am so tired. Mmg betul pun penat melayan si Jade. Bf mmg memenatkan. My body is aching everywhere, Im telling you.

An hour later, paksa diri bangun. Dinner dah ready, kids prepared pizza with hubby's watching them. Great kids, alhamdulillah.

Did some ironing for an hour. Hubby bought me new iron. Ni kira paling mahal lar pernah pakai (160Euros), all this while pakai yg standard 50Euros jer dah 9 tahun tuuuuuuuuuuuuu. Time to change bebeh.

Done 1 full basket. Another 3 to go, huhhh.

WORK

2011-11-06T22:10:00.000+01:00

Oh how time flies.

My little angel Jade has her sleeping routine now... I mean at nite. Sharp 7.30pm, she will start to be so grumpy. Have to rush preparing dinner for them, then off upstairs to bf her. She fell asleep 15min later on.

She was awake by the cry of Ida at 4am. Ida had a nightmare I think so she slept with us. Eh peliknya terus tak nangis kan.

At 7am, no more sleeping for Jade after bf her. She stays in my bed, playing alone, talking alone till I have finished my shower, solat and preparing big bro and big sis. Adam took her downstairs where she spent her time watching the cartoon with bro next to her. Kids could have quiet breakfast.

Geramnya ngan Oggy nih... time kita nak rush prepare breakfast for kids, perut kita pun lapar nih, itu jam dia menenggek depan tingkap nak masuk, nak mencekik. Mmg very stressing and buat daku berangin gak. Kena marah gak lar "sorry, you'll be the last one to be served, my kids are more important". Mulut jer berkata kata tapi hati tak sampai. Last last cik kitam jugak dpt breakfast dulu, huhhhh.

Jade started to be tired at 9am so off for a bath, she could play for awhile. Then massaged her with baby oil, bf her and off she fell asleep for the next 2 1/2hours yayyyyyy. I could do my work peacefully next room. Altho it's not finish yet, I am satisfy. If she keeps on sleeping like this, I could work at least few hours in the morning and few hours at nite when all of them go to sleep. This is great. Should keep up like this.

Off to Creteil, had lunch at an indian restaurant. Didnt really like it. Tak pedas takde umphhh. I prefer the one in Vigneux. Then hubby left me and Jade for the next one hour. Cuci mata, window shopping. Gaji tak dapat lagi maka automatically mood nak beli barang pun takde. But still, spent 60Euros.

MIL took the kids from school. Meantime, I could prepare their teatime.Jade was so happy to see them. My kids that I love so much. So when they have finished dinner, off to bed. Jade fell asleep at 8pm I guess and the others at 9pm, after doing his Isyak for Adam.

Work time for me for 2hours.

HAIR CUT

2011-11-05T22:16:00.000+01:00

I remember people saying how tiring it is to bf especially during the nite. In which different for me. I find it very easy, no need to bancuh milk, having to walk half sleeping, heating the water etc. Bf makes life easy ... err makes my sleep easy eheh heh heh. My little Jade wakes up at her usual hour, 5am, fell asleep 15min later and woke up at 8am. Tell me if that's not a joy to live with.

What a long busy day.

Cancelled the appointment for Jade with PMI, got another one end of this month. So could do our hair cut this morning ... all of us except Jade.

Hubby insisted of me cutting my hair, besides, I have enough, it's too long and started to be dry and split at the end. Then hubby wants my natural color... sigh. Next week IF I hv time, will color it back. Talking about color, I gotta find if the type of color they use can adapt to do prayer. Hmmmm. Research dulu.

Had lunch, Jade fell asleep, peaceful lunch for me. Shopped at H&M. Moral of the day, kalau rasa gatal nak gi shopping, sila jgn bawak husband. Mmg leceh sgt lar leceh. Orang kirim barang pun mmg takleh bitau dia, takleh pegi ngan dia, kena pegi sendiri. Tak tahan mulut pot pet mcm ayam.

Adam missed his wednesday karate lesson AGAIN for the third time I guess. We gotta stop going out like this every Wednesday.

Hubby left for his shooting and I left with the kids to PMI to complete Jade's documents.

Jade oh Jade. Since few days, each time we eat, she will be looking at us and our mouth munching, as if she wants to have a taste too. On today while bf her, eaten maruku ... krup krap krup krap bunyi. Boleh plak dia pause tgk mulut mak dia krup krap krup krap ekekekeke. Budak ni mmg nak makan rasanya. But I will try to wait till she's 5mths walaupun hati ni meronta rontaaaaa nak bagi dia makan hu huuuuuuuuuu.

Hmmm being severe with Adam again that I realised towards the end of the day of how cruel I am to him.

So utk memujuk hati yg rasa bersalah, after Isyak together, asked him to baring on my lap, where I caressed him gently while saying 3-kul to him diikuti dgn ciuman full of love from a mother to her son. With a hope, sayang anak mama, jadilah anak yg soleh ... remember who you are and your roots.

As for Ida, she tried so hard to take care of her little sister who doesnt stop crying while I was preparing dinner, till the extend that she started to be full of tears, fearing that I will be angry at her for not being able to stop Jade from crying.

Oh anak anakku ... betapa besarnya pengorbanan as a mother.

Am just another ungrateful human that is never happy for what You have given me. Most of the time, all that I could think is my sorrow, all the hard work that I have to face everyday, without looking at the bright side. Thank you Allah for your mercy to me.

SHIFT MALAM

2011-11-04T22:27:00.001+01:00

Once a day jer dapat buat tapi bila dapat byk mcm ni, punyalah bersyukur.

Hmmm semenjak dpt balik my car, asyik kena jadi supir jer antar n ambik kids to school.
Ni muka gumbira sbb starting this new school entry, tak pernah dia anto adik dia ke class.

Ni muka gumbira sbb rambut jadi curly sbb buat tocang semalam.

She's happy, mom's happy and we r off for some window shopping..nevermind the "dead line".. nevermind the documents to settle..that's for later.

Mandi suda, susu dah bg, mak bersiap, dah tukar baju n ready to go, dia suda burp n muntah plak kat baju mak dia hua hua huaaaa..we r late Jade!

Take away KFC and eaten in the car when hubby called to have lunch. Was pretty late. So just accompanied him and the two workers.

Shift malam, apa nak buat. The only time I can work at the moment is when Jade's sleeping. She slept like 2 hours during the day ... zup zap zup zap buat kerja. Work desk si Adam dah jadi my lil office dah. Malam lepas dinner and dah settlekan budak budak semua, dah pengsan semuanya, sambung kerja balik for as long as I can. What to do.

4 MONTHS

2011-11-03T22:16:00.000+01:00

My little Jade celebrated her 4months on earth. Time flies so fast, I wish I could freeze it, dont want her to grow up ... for her to stay baby and my two other love stays the same.

I must say that as a baby, Jade is not too bad. Waking up only at 5am, so I have a good sleep indeed so shouldnt be complaining.

Sent the kids to school ... kemain lagi yer pakcik semenjak dpt keta ku balik, makin kerap plak daku kena keluar huhhh. But my girl was so happy indeed. Sent her till her classroom.

This was the day. Jgn main main dgn mak kamu yer. Ive been observing you and today was the day that you got the wrong timing to mess with me. So today was the day where Adam got 3libasan tali pinggang for missing:
1. subuh
2. zohor
3. asar

It's true that when he got back, it was already time for Asar. Tapi memanjang main jer kerja dia. Panggil berkali kali tak dgr maka kan dah kena. New method on today. No seluar dalam, sila pegang kerusi then with tali pinggang, ZASS ZASS ZASS! Don't play with me! Hope he learned the lesson when it comes to prayer, this is priority. Already we are not that good, don't want him to be like us either. But I believe, Allah have mercy to people who try to help diri mereka sendiri.

You can say whatever you want to say "ketam mengajar anak berjalan lurus" or whatsoever but you know what, I dont give a fucking damn, sekian terimakasih.

Told him he's punished, no dinner and no game for the week. He obeyed me and went straight to bed. My heart was crying deep inside. Went downstairs and prepared dinner. Ida was being adorable.. this is very usual bila mak dia naik angin (dgn abang dia and not with her). Suruh apa pun buat lar.

If ada mak yg sanggup biarkan anak berlapar utk mengajar anak, well, not me. I carried this boy in my stomach, woke up everynite when he cried, be there for him when he's sick and when he need me .... now just to let him starve like that ... no, i cant do it... not yet. So called him to have dinner, gave him a big hug and asked him if he understood my message and he said yes.

My dear kids, I love you all so much... tak terkata betapa mama sayangnya korang semua. May Allah help us all, amin.

SHOPPING

2011-11-02T22:06:00.000+01:00

Oh my dear Jade .. kenapa kurang tido ni nak. Woke up at 5am to drink then at 7am, mata bolat nak main. Tidolah nak, mama penat ni. But who can resist such an angel. She fell asleep at 8am I guess and woke up around 9 something.

Did heavy breakfast for the kids as I know Frederick usually eats a lot in the morning.

Shopping day for me and my girl. Off to the Sunday market. Aaaahhhhh ... love this therapy.

Tak sampai 1 jam tinggalkan, rupa memasing, mcm lar dah kena abandon.
Went to Ikea in the evening. Beli barang and had tea time there. Jade ni tengok jer mulut kitorang menganga makan. Sian plak tengok so hubby let her taste her very first ice cream. Yum yummm. And she love the macaron chocolate flavour!!

OPEN HOUSE

2011-11-01T21:54:00.000+01:00

Wah mcm gempak jer bunyi kan padahal just invite few people jer muahahaha.

So Joshline took Jade at 10.30am, so that I can prepare today's meal peacefully. Thank Allah. She's the only person here that I can count on to take care of Jade...who can give as much as love after me, to Jade. With her, I dont even worry coz I know Jade's in right hand. She knows EXACTLY what to do if Jade cries or simply being grumpy. Even better than Jade's own grandma.

I could prepare the meals that Ive planned right on time. Thank you too with the help of Philippe and Hugo who came for the invitation. They handled the satay together with hubby. The kids helped to bring all the other stuff in the garden.

Meal on today:
1. Satay
2. Nasi impit
3. Kuah kacang
4. Ayam masak merah
5. Nasi briyani

Then I realised that I didnt even do vegies that I have planned. Short of time. They came right when I have finished setting in order the table. We had great lunch, all of them loved my food, alhamdulillah. Satay habis dgn sekelip mata. Cant even tapau for them so just tapau nasi impit, balance of briyani and the rest of ayam masak merah yg berlebih ya amat. Plus kuah kacang of course.

Alrite, Ive explained to her about how we celebrate Hari Raya in Malaysia so when she came, she gave duit raya to my kids. Kind of embarassing for me coz she gave really a lot compared to what I gave to her kids. Besides, she was NOT SUPPOSE to give. When I told her, she told me, she's blending with the culture.

Great time we had, great chat we had too. Then they left around 4.30pm, Frederick stayed over. Hubby, Hugo, Philippe, Adam and Frederick went for the boat as hubby planned to wash it but they ended up fishing instead where they caught one big fish from the river. They came back pretty late, around 8pm, after ordering the pizza that I have requested. Called hubby saying "sorry, restaurant at home is close, buy pizza pls".

I am bloody tired, wanted to sleep, switched on the aircond in the room but ended up watching tv with Ida while bf ing Jade. Man, she's drinking a lot and always grumpy as if it's not enough. Then when I and Jade could finally sleep, Ida would wake me up to ask me something. How not nice you are , girl ... Im just so tired and try to have a rest.

AAAH WHAT A DAY

2011-10-29T22:39:00.000+02:00

Been doing this once a day. So happy!!

5 full big baskets of clothes to iron, veranda full of dumped mess to clear off(thanx to hubby), 2 kids and a baby. Tell me why am I not angin at the end of the day.

But indeed am starting to enjoy when hubby's outstation, seriously. No one to tell me what to do, no one to tell me that I am wrong, no one to play the lil kid. So peaceful im telling ya. I could settle bit by bit of the veranda in this damn hot weather. Membahang, berpeluh giler in the veranda. Ada aircond, sapa tak suruh pasang kan ... padan muka haku.

My angel Jade left me peaceful to clean the house and the veranda. She slept around 11am I guess till noon. Right when I was ready to have my lunch. Then attended to her, she fell asleep while bf ing her from 12.30pm till 3pm. Errrr I fell asleep with her hahahaha. This is so good. Given the fact that I couldn't sleep last nite due to the mosquitoes (sini pun ada nyamuk hokay), as I have opened the window to feel the cool breeze at nite. Plus dgn takutnya lagi sbb hubby takde, siap pasang lampu kat bilik sebelah but I keep on waking up due to this light and the nyamuk. Oh yeah, seperti biasalah kan, bapaknya enggak ada, anak anaknya ku angkut tido dlm bilik lar hehehe.

MIL sent the kids to school. Great. Photo session for the kids but when they came back, they told me, only class photo and no brother and sister photo yet. Tomorrow I guess. Pakai sedondon lagi yer anak anak.

Hubby came around 7pm. The kids had their bath, could play in the bath tub for a long time, each of them. Cuaca panas, hati panas so mandilah dua kali sehari yer. Becoz hubby miss the kids, he gave a green light for them to sleep with us. Daku lar plak pot pet sbb leceh betul bila ada sekolah and they are sleeping with us.

At the end of the day, I realised that si Adam ni asyik kena tegur jer. Hmmmm sian anak mama. Sorry yer nak yer. I will try to be gentle with you on tomorrow. Tapi telinga tu kasi dgr sikit lar yer nak yer.

I remember Ida telling me the other day "mama, can you pls dont yell on today, plsssss".

SOMETIMES..

2011-10-28T22:27:00.000+02:00

Jade has lil bit of fever around 5am. Then, I covered her too much..dah lar baru kena inject semalam.

She continued sleeping that I had to wake her up at 9.30am to get ready coz we're going out.

We left to Evry (where else!) for groceries then had lunch there. Had to rush back coz hubby's going outstation and will return tomorrow. So no hair cut for him and Adam.

Sometimes is good to not have your husband at home. Free to do anything, no complain, no merajuk or whatsoever. So peaceful I must say hehehe. I can do things without hearing nasty comments.

Adam skipped his karate lesson. Grandparents left to see Jacqueline, we came back almost the time for the karate lesson and time for hubby to leave the house... no way for me to stress out to drive out to send and take him from karate with all the kids!

So mengemas time in the veranda. Damn hot weather, man. As usual, kerja ku terbantut bila Jade dah bangun.

Kids are happy ... they could sleep with me coz hubby's not there where usually when there is school, no way to sleep in our room hih hih hih.

No appetite tonite. Just some fruits and juice. Jade started to have a lil bit of fever again. My poor girl.

Gaji oh gaji cepatlah masuk. Tangan ni dah gatal sgt rasa nak pilih barang kat shopping complex ... dah tak tertahan nih!!

VACCINATION

2011-10-27T22:15:00.000+02:00

Hubby's having a flu since yesterday he suspected that he got it during the boat tour the other day. As he left really early yesterday and feeling exhausted and sick, let him sleep. Prepared the kids, their breakfast including Jade then called up MIL to take care of Jade while Im sending the kids to school.

Cool breeze in the morning, I like it. But it turns out to be pretty hot during the day, around 27°. Duduk umah buat kerja, pakai sleeveless with tight, otherwise berpeluh giler and couldnt stand it.

Betul lar mulut jangan cabul kan. Before this duk kata orang kat Malaysia kalau keluar punyalah cantik, bila kat umah mcm cina mati laki ... aaaa skarang wa yg mcm tu. Besides, anak dah 3 dan ada baby ni, mmg takleh nak melawa lar bila kat umah. Dgn kerja berlambak lagi .. ambik ko ikat sanggul mak enon terus. Nak bergerak sana sini pun senang...turun tangga naik tangga. Hubby thought I was doing some exercises wearing like that hu huuuuu.

He invited me for lunch, wanting to do groceries but found out that i didn't bring the patch that I have to put on Jade's thigh one hour before the injection. So postponed it tomorrow. Back home kena rushing. Solat lagi, nyusukan Jade lagi, prepare things lagi, till the extend that I have forgotten to bring the medicines that I had to turn back to take it. Typically me to get stress easily and once Im stress, that's the end of everything.

Talked about this stress thing to the doctor and there is nothing I can take as long as Im bf ing. Jade got 2 injections on today. She cried during the second injection. Fell asleep in the car, on the way to take the two kids. Carried her but she continued sleeping. The jabs must made her feeling tired.

I wish I could freeze the time...so many things to do and yet, so little time. I am still under maternity leave till October but I really have to start working, looking at the piles of documents on my desk to settle.

Then when it was time to prepare dinner, Jade would be crying non stop.

I LOVE YOU JADE

2011-10-26T23:45:00.001+02:00

Hubby left really early that I wasnt sure how early. Shooting 400km away so he came back at 7pm together with IL who arrived 15minutes before. Aisey pesal lar tak cuti lama sikit. Sikit punya bahagia takde jiran ihih hih hih.

So no choice, had to send and take the kids from school. Dah risau abis ni kut si Ida buat perangai. Kat rumah ada sedikit buat perangai. Bowl of cereals dia tumpahkan pulak. Surprisingly she was well behaved...my oh my. Sent her till her classroom, she was in a good mood, making me kisses and left. This one boy name Jason, hmmmm adakah dikau minat kat anak daraku yer ... each time nampak Ida mesti senyum senyum. You know that kind of senyum "malu tapi mau".

I would rather say that Ida is alrite besides her french character. Boleh diharap jaga Jade when I was driving. Bila kat rumah, blh tolong jagakan Jade bila mama dia tgh buat kerja. Suruh prepare meja nak dinner pun dia buat. Altho there are times where she would be complaining "asyik Ida jer". Oh yeah, when she wants to tackle me, she would be speaking in malay.

As for my boy ... boleh diharap jugak. He merungut less and less now when I ask him something. After dinner, both him and Ida didnt stop playing, giggling most of the time.

I am enjoying each and every moment with Jade. Today's really exceptional. Only two of us during the day...so peaceful. I could appreciate her. Making hugs and kisses to her. Singing lullaby, holding her tight, talking to her. Inventing songs about her, where she would be smiling looking at me.

Just melt my heart. I just wanna freeze the time so that I will have this moment forever coz for sure im gonna miss this. Oh Jade I love you so so much. With all my heart I love you, Jade. I couldnt describe this feeling of joy for having you in my life. To see you smile and replying to me.

As usual, would prepare dinner for them first, I can never have mine first. Finished cooking and prepare for them, would be the sleeping time for Jade. Then she fell asleep. At 10.30pm bila dah settle semua kerja, daku nak late dinner, itu jam dia bangun, nak temankan mak dia makan!

KLASS UGAMA

2011-10-25T23:35:00.001+02:00

Left to the market with Ida n Jade. Won a voucher of 5euros yehaaaa...soalan bak kcg yg dikunyah.."Who is the partner of handsome Brat Pitt?"

Pak arab kalau nampak asian girls mmg ingat ada harapan ek, please lar. Puji banyak kali kata "you look great, look great", rasa nak swing jer. Girls, next time dont wait for me too far.

Bought that yummy roasted chicken for lunch, some vegies n fruits. Got myself two handbags n pair of shoes.

Reached home at noon, time to arrange the mess, kids started to be hungry, Jade started to cry. It gets to my nerves ,when he doesn't do anything unless if i ask him. Meja x prepare, Jade lg menangis, nak basuh n prepare salad lg. Adam lg kena rush for his first klass ugama. Makan pun kena express.

Sent him, then off us went to St Michel to repair my car yg dah sebulan lebih tak jalan. Rindu sgt to drive my sweetheart. Hope you wont cost me too much, sweetie!
"Stingy mom" says Jade. Baru ari ni decided to buy her new toy. Bapaknya lar kata "she wont play with it, she wont care". Padahal dia yg mcm tu, nak kata anak dia. So memandangkan daku yg bayar kan so lantak lar nak cakap apa pun.

See, she was so excited playing with it.

Took Adam directly later on. He told me he doesnt have any friends. Told him, sabarlah sayang, baru start klass kan. Oh my, the kids there hmmmm.

BOAT

2011-10-24T23:27:00.000+02:00

Great weather means boat tour.

Angsa berterbangan hu huuuuu.

Cik embam suka betul yer kalau berjalan yer.

Buah hati mama.

AIDILFITRI CELEBRATION AT EMBASSY

2011-10-23T23:04:00.001+02:00

It was the Aidilfitri celebration with Malaysia Embassy, Paris. Invited Joshline and her family. Got our traditional costume for each of them.

Was so excited.

Tq dear hubby for being such in a good mood to go. Surprisingly, there were not really students there, thus ... less crowded where usually when the students are there, perghhhhh, menempel dari majlis bukak sampai majlis tutup, nak duduk pun takde tempat, sepenuh penuhnya! So this year kira wokey lar tu ihih hih hih.

Enjoyed it!

HUBBY THE PLUMBER

2011-10-22T22:56:00.000+02:00

My little Jade woke up only at 6am, bf her then it was time for me to wake up and it was the time where she refused to sleep. Kids could have their breakfast before going to school. This been happening since we came back from holiday. I love the new kitchen too. So easy to prepare things. Thanx to hubby.

Left to Joshline's place, had lunch there. Hubby was the plumber on today, fixing her broken pipe in the kitchen, even went out to a shop to buy the parts. God bless you dear husband for your kindness.

Jade spent her time bf ing. She doesnt look like usual. I think she's sick coz she doesnt stop crying for nothing. Even her eyes dont look normal. As if she's tired. Really gotta see the doctor tomorrow.

Hubby sent and took the kids from school nowadays. Lot of people at school been asking about me and hubby urged me to take the kids from school so that I can see these people. But so sorry darling, im just not in the mood to drive out and see people yet.

Ive been having the mood to cook nowadays. Perhaps becoz of the new kitchen hmmmmm.

Jade fell asleep pretty early on today around 8.30pm where usually is 9pm. Ada baby mcm ni lar kan. Penat memasak, when it's time to eat, that is the time she would be crying and either I have to stop eating or I have to eat really fast. Eating outside is the worst part. I would be the last one to eat, when the plate is already pretty cold. Get to my nerves at times.

Great, so far the kids follow the rule to sleep in their room when it's school time. Altho of course Ida did try it on me but sorry it wont work, my dear.

Continued ironing in the basement later on for an hour. Done full big basket. Done one lastnite. Another 3 big baskets to go, not including the hanging clothes of hubby's shirts and my blouses and dresses. Gotta continue this every nite. Missing a day meaning, piles of clothes mounting up, lady!

FULL

2011-10-20T22:56:00.000+02:00

Another one full day of bf...yeayyyy. Jade's catching up with her sleeping rhythm. Waking up only at 5am. This is just so great.

Just when I was so lazy to cook coz was busy setting order the mess in the veranda, was the moment that Jade fell asleep deeply for at least 2hours. Petanda "sila merajinkan diri kedapur".

Joshline who was sick since last Friday, dropped by after school with the two boys.

Lent her the malay costume for her daughter, boys and husband for this Friday's open house with Malaysia embassy. Hubby agreed on going there too yeayyy.

Adam and Ida obeyed me and the rule of "school, in their room... no school , in our room". Altho Ida did tried to "buy" me but unfortunately my dear ... im pretty severe nowadays like Adam told me.

ANAK OH ANAK

2011-10-18T22:51:00.001+02:00

Trying not to feed Jade with the formula when we are at home so on today, pecah record, one bottle only..the rest, bf! But man, she is drinking so much! The thing is, it made me feel hungry all the time. This is not good coz im not bf ing her fully so the chances of me putting on weight is very high.

IL left to Ilde de Re. Becoz of this, Oggy came few times to eat. Pandai ko nak idup yer. Alright last month, he brought back a little black cat home which went hiding in our living room for days, only went out at nite to eat and made so much mess!

Well that cat, yes that bloody stray cat is followong Oggy everywhere now! Caught them many times together with Oggy treating that lil cat like his own kid! All this while i thought kucing jantan will be very severe with kittens, not with Oggy! So I assume Oggy ni kira bapok lar, alar mcm manusia lar, bapok tapi still caring nak ada anak angkat giteww. Yelar, mana ada kucing jantan asli nak ambik kesah pasal anak kucing lain kan!

Tak boleh lar nak biarkan pintu terbukak skarang ni otherwise for sure that stray cat pun masuk sekali. Baru dulu kata stray cats takde kat sini..nak ambek ko mulut cabul.

The thing is, ni kucing betina ok! Dont tell me she will be pregnant frm other cats and all the kittens will be straying at our place! No way! So we gotta call the centre for animals so that they will take this cat away pls!

Left to Ikea for some shopping for the house.

Oh kids, korang semua bikin mak kamu stress. Bila keluar, si abg ngan kakak lari sana lari sini...kes bergurau sesama sendiri lar ni. But this is very annoying im telling you.

Then back home, byk sgt kerja nak buat. Dgn Jade lagi melalak mmg tension nak buat kerja. Mmg stress. Not that she's crying all the time. Just that when im working too much and passed her feed time, there she goes crying.

Then my dear friend told me something that left me thinking of how true it is...left me crying. I might have hard times with the kids, i might not have time for me. The kids drive me crazy yes i know.

Now each time im starting to feel stress, angry, meluat, angin or whatsoever....i have to beristigifar byk kali.....just enjoy the show. Coz one day when they grow up, they will leave the house, start their own life. I will be alone at home with hubby and this would be the moment where i wish i could turn back the time...when they were small like.....now.

I love you all so much my dear kids. I wish I could hold you all in my arms and just freeze the time so that you all stay small as you all now.

GROCERIES

2011-10-16T22:40:00.000+02:00

Joshline was sick so she couldnt take Jade as planned. Poor friend, just hope it wasnt becoz of the food from Malaysia!

Left for groceries with hubby and Jade. Shopping time at H&M and Zara.

Back home, mengemas time. Lucky me to have a husband yg boleh dikira rajin gaklar bak bertukang.

FIRST SCHOOL ENTRY

2011-10-15T22:38:00.000+02:00

My little Jade left the house around 1am with Auntie Joshline. Tq my friend for taking care of her. Making it easy for me to unpack my baggages.

First day of school for the kids. No problemo to wake up disebabkan jetlag. 6am jer memasing dah bangun. Sempat breakfast and tgk tv lelama lagi.

HOME SWEET HOME

2011-10-13T22:32:00.000+02:00

Great thing flying back from KL to Paris is that flight malam, maka kids tido hahaha. Cuma time orang serve food tu diorang tak makan lar plak.. maka mak dia pun bedal daaa. Tapi mana boleh bedal sekali dua daa so paksa jugak bangun kasi isi perut.

We could get a seat the same row so it was fine. Kids were basically alrite, well behaved.

Flight arrived only around 9am. Hubby was already anxiously waiting for us.

And he did a suprise when I was not there. Changed the look of the kitchen and the living room.

And Ive got my dream refrigerator at last!! Was so amazed with his hardwork. Love it!!

Dpt surprise gift from him. Ni mesti nak bodek bini dia kan.

Busy un packing and I guess this will take days hu huuuuu. Toys that Jade received from Malaysia. Tq aunties semua... Auntie Lili, Auntie Farah and Auntie Roslina. Muuuahhhhh to you all.

Perghhh bila perut lapor, jet lag, tired and no mood (mood sedih lagi), maka bekalan kakak kesayangan ku ni lar yg ku really appreciate.

Her speciality, kuey teow kerang. Kali ni, kerang bagak punya size (mcm perli gue jer kan) dan banyak plak tu. Mcm kerang kuey teow, bukan kuey teow kerang! Tq sis for everything. Every year without a miss mesti you tapaukan for me kan. Love you so much.

GOODBYE TANAH TUMPAHNYA DARAHKU

2011-10-12T22:19:00.000+02:00

So this is the last day. Am well known to do things last minute. Went out with Ida to JPJ, then had breakfast at McD.

Singgah makan with family kat warung tepi jalan SU. Perghhh dia punya mee sup mmg power! Cendol pun ada umphhh.

Met Roslina again after how many years tak jumpa. Also my cyber friend. Congrats for your baby yg malangnya tak dapat jumpa ari ni uhuk uhukk.

So stress to pack the baggages. Many things to do. Gone the plan to leave to the airport before maghrib. Nasib baik ada Irma tolong jagakan Jade and helped me to pack a bit.

Karma and Aur came close to Maghrib. Then we all left to the airport. Abg khai didnt go, have to monitor Rafiq study as Rafiq will sit for upsr test tomorrow.

Received a sms saying that flight delayed. I was already excited, hoping that it will be delayed a day. Chesss rupanya delay 3hours jer due to the bad weather in Australia so the flight couldnt leave for Malaysia as scheduled.

So off we went to lepak at kedai mamak not far away. Ramainya yg datang dan tahun ni lagi bertambah. Dgn pakngan and Fiqa ..

..my kazen Ayu and her family plus Fiqa

My kazen with his future fiance..

Atuk dan satu satunya cucu jantannya.

Im gonna miss this terribly..

Sedihnya hati tak terhingga when it was time to leave. Truth hurts but i have to go back where i live....with a hope that i will live here one day...in my own country, close to my family. Maybe ada hikmahya berjauhan dgn family.

I am touched with the kindness that i received frm people around me. Even relationship between family and relatives becoming better. This year, becoming close with pakngah's family especially Ayu and her husband. I am really terharu with their hospitality and the love that they have cor my baby Jade.

I hope Allah will shower you and your family with His blessings...may all your dreams come true, dear cousinku.

FAMILY OUTING AND MEETING CYBER FRIENDS

2011-10-11T22:28:00.000+02:00

Wow what a day ... what a long, fun, all in one, hectic day!

Tapi sebelum tu kita mulakan hari dgn mengisi perut dulu ya... yeaaa kita minom duluuu.

Jade kena gomol ngan atok. Then met plak acik Erin dia (my cousin) yg breakfast kat situ jugak.

My hot mama, internet friend. Alhamdulillah dapat jua kita ketemu dan dapat jugak kenyit kenyit mata Jade and Aidan hahaha.

Babies of the year. Aidan ni bagus, tak takut kat orang. Semua orang dia nak. Ngan atok pun bukan main "in lap". Tq to hot mama Dewi yg drove all the way from her place datang to my sis's place. Dgn bawak baby kecik lagi... tabik spring kat you. Thank you jugak for the presents for Jade. Gonna miss you all... hope to see you again next year, insyaAllah.
Then off to Taman Permata. My cousin, Ayu ajak datang rumah. Jumpa Eda plak sekejap, nak bagi barang dan dapat barang. She has a baby too, cute little Khalisha, a mth younger than Jade.

This year, siratulrahim with my dear cousin and her family bertambah rapat. And I discovered how wonderful these people are. Their hospitality and their genorisity. Terharu rasanya. Hanya Allah yg dpt membalasnya.

Jade sukanya ngan Pakcu. "Pakcu, pakcu, pakcu jgn komut aa"

With Pakteh. Aaaa dah boleh lar tu tahun depan tu aaaa.

Then off to Wangsa Walk. Jumpa plak cyber friend, Farhana. Another hot mama. Man, she is sooooooo tall. Till the extend that I didnt realise I keep on saying this. Dapat jumpa sekejap jer lar tapi, my fault. Tq so much for your time. Baby Isa sudah semestinya sgt adorable baby. Manis jer muka. And he's tall too!! Till we meet again next year insyaAllah. Nice to meet you, wonderful people!

Off for bowling. Kazen ku sayang, Along, belanja. Murahlah rezeki ko Long, insyaAllah.

Oh yea, mak pegi bowling, anak tinggal hehehe. Tq Maklong sbb jaga baby Jade. Alangkah bahagianya kalau maklong duduk dekat kan, mmg tetiap ari mak syaya anto syaya kat maklong ekekekek.

BDR TUN HUSEIN ONN-SRI GOMBAK-IJOK

2011-10-10T22:02:00.000+02:00

Makuda, our most favourite auntie (as I have mentioned), invited me for breakfast at Richman Cafe (tak silapnya lar nama dia) together with her kids, mine and Boboy.

This would be the first time (as far as I remember), paying so much for breakfast (about RM150++)!! Tq makuda.

Banjir, jgn tak banjir.

Pulut kuning and kari ayam. Perghhh. Tiap tiap ari makan camni, jadi tongdram lar jawabnya.

Nenek indeed was happy that I overnite there. Could borak borak with her for a long time. Should do this every year. Love you, nenek. I have so much beautiful memories of you when I was small.

Dad came to pick me up with sis's car as Aur wanted to use his car. Mamat komot, ekekekeke. Off we went to maksu's house.

Ni kira beraya lar nih. Kalau pegi umah maksu paksu, yg seronoknya, layanan mmg first class. Dgn lauk pauk dia perghhhhh. Sbb tu lagi suka gi umah maksu paksu dari maksu paksu gi umah kitorang ekekeke.

Jade with Neksu and paksu (left) and Jade with neklong. Haiya ari ni maklong tak masak laksa terbaek itu uhuk uhuk.

Us, with our peberet kazen, cik kitam ngeheheh. Cik kitam gaji lebat skarang ni, jgn lupa belanja taww ngehehe.

Next, supper at Ahd's house. Makan lagi babe. Mee hoon soto and kuey teow power perghh. Tq Ahd and Has.

SG BULOH-SG LONG-CHERAS

2011-10-09T21:41:00.000+02:00

Had breakfast at mamak as any other morning since Im here. Went with the kids, dad and Irma.

Lihatlah betapa lazatnya...kolestrol byk ker belakang kira ekekek.

Very friendly Irma.

Tu dia pekena teh tarik, kembali bertenaga selepas iteww yawwww.

Alrite, a bit of liberty for dad to relax so I drove on today... I guess for the first time since I arrived here? Seat baby tarak, maka letak kat belakang on a cushion, suruh Adam jaga. Melalak tak hengat lar nak nyusu padahal dah bagi susu dah.

Puas abang Adam pujuk pujuk, boleh nampak tension bang Adam, sian dia ... last last adik tertido selepas berapa lama melalak. Mmg tensen mau drive ooo. Cuaca panas, hati pun panas.

My gps couldnt find the address of Maiza .. damn dont know why the map here is not detail as the one in France grrrrr. So appointment at Cheras Mall, then followed Maiza till Sg Long at her place. Arrived really late than suppose to be.

Beautiful house she has, masyaAllah. Mmg seronok dpt villa mcm nih. Tapi pitih babe pitih!! Tq Maiza for your hospitality and not to forget the presents! Till we meet again next year.

It was close to Maghrib when we left. This time round, bf Jade while driving! Ni after hearing what Maiza told me lar, she did that with her kids. I was afraid kena tahan ngan polis hu huuuuuuuu. Reached mak uda's house like 40min later.

Paksu, our favourite uncle came for dinner. Susah nak jumpa paksu skarang hu huuuuuuu.

Teringat zaman kecik dulu. Paksu ngan makuda lar yg rajin datang melawat kitorang every weekend. Pastu bawak makanan and bagi RM1, pegi pasar malam. Tu dah rasa cukup besar dah. Sbb tu mmg takleh lupa jasa paksu ngan makuda. Because even when we have nothing ... they were there for us.

Adam with auntie Nabila and Neknyang.

Yahooooo malam ini tido dlm aircond yahoooo bersama sama ngan Nabila yahoooo heheheh. Borak dan borak dan borak then zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

AMPANG PARK-SHAH ALAM

2011-10-08T12:23:00.000+02:00

As my appointment was pretty late, we had early lunch as dad has something to do so invited dad to eat at Pizza Hut. Adam was so happy, his taste gitew.

Kena sakat with atuk.

The kids ... bermacam ragam.

"Yay we r eating pizza, we r eating pizza"

Met Ina Jaya at my favourite resto. Chit chatting, catching up what we have been missing. Always nice to see you buddy. Malangnya selalu tak cukup masa kan masalahnya.

I loveeeee kungfu kuey teow yum yumm.
Kids got presents from auntie Ina (AS USUAL!!). Adam was busy playing with auntie's itouch.

Later on, off to Shah Alam to meet Sharizal. Jumpa sekejap jer. Tahun ni, byk kali jumpa ngan sahabat baik ku sorang nih.

WANGSA WALK-PULAPOL-SETIAWANGSA-BUKIT JELUTONG

2011-10-07T22:15:00.000+02:00

What day ... what a long day indeed. Nasib baik lar ada dad, making himself free for me and cucus dari jauh, being the driver for me to go everywhere. Coz honestly this year, mmg tara mood mau drive. Plus si Jade yg bf ni lagi, mau stress nak drive kat KL.

Cik bolat/ulat sagu/ulas durian mandi dlm baldi ekekek.

Had lunch appointment with Cikgu Suzy, my english teacher when I was in secondary school. Very lovely teacher who brings me only sweet memories of her. Because of her, learning english seems to be so fun. She is always smiling thru out the day, teaching us.

After 20yrs, here we are again, anak murid pun lagi besau dari cikgu .. but cikgu still look forever young. Thank you cikgu for your time. What a joy to see you again .. chit chatting a long time.

We had lunch at this so call famous fast food, Popeye. Sangat kureng. I still prefer KFC. Dad was still bermurung and didnt eat that much.

Next, off to Pulapol. Nostalgia betul. A place where I grew up. Met Cikgu Yanti. Last year tak sempat jumpa, alhamdulillah tahun ni sempat jumpa altho sekejap. Tq cikgu for your time.

Next to Lili's house. Dad just dropped us there. Daku sampai awal, siap boleh tido tido lagi while bf-ing Jade. Teruk betul perangai tetamu kan tuan rumah.

Mimi came after office hour ..; was pretty upset coz I didnt pick up her call nor I return her call. So sorry Mimi and all friends ... being here using lil hp not mine, plus having a third child, Im really a sucker with time management. At home, the hp is upstairs and im downstairs. In the car, the hp is under the seat, im in the car bf-ing Jade and couldnt take my hp. After midnite when I have settled the kids, then only I can look up at my hp, by that time either too late, or I was too tired to reply and forgetting about it the next day.

As usual, daku di serve dgn yummylicious food. Dan as usual mesti tak lupa beli satay especially utk si Adam yg banyak songeh iteww.

Lili cooked my favourite meal yum yummmmm. Love it, love it!! Then extra menu, laksa!!

Best friends. Alangkah bahagianya kalau duduk dekat coz Faris is a good influence to Adam. Seronoknya bila Faris panggil "Adam jom sembayang". Sejuk hati tengok.

Khadija and Ida played together much more than last year.

Punyalah lama kat umah Lili, pot pet here and there. Then dad came to pick me up and was invited to have dinner. Dah terlewat ke rumah puan sri lagi sorang.

Reached kak Lin's house around 10.30pm. Tuan rumah pun dah abis dinner, ready nak tido hu huuuuuuuuu. So sorry lar kak lin and hubby, datang lambat lambat.

Nice to meet you again sis, thank you for your time and that yummylicious supper! In which suda masuk perut dan tak sempat ambik gambo hehehe.

Adam was so happy to know they have cats and was busy playing with them. Also busy playing with kak Lin's little boy. When it was time to go, Adam complained how short it was and wanting to come again. Mama punya schedule very pack lar sayang. Next year kita datang lama sikit ok.

BERTUNGKU & FACIAL

2011-10-06T18:29:00.001+02:00

Abang iparku belanja lunch hari ni. It was pretty late, around 2pm something when we left. Daku dah menggigil ni rasa nak pengsan.

It was a muslim chinese restaurant that Ive been wanting to go since a long time. Thank you abang iparku yg budiman hehehe (bodek kasi up sket).

Ok so we have ordered and it took quite sometime.. air pun lambat sampai. Kat depan nampak plak little egg tart. Both sis and me were starving to death so started to wallap that yummylicious egg tart. Imagine daku minum dlm 6ketul jugak lar (eh ke lebih?) pastu sambil sedut air asam boi.

Sekali bila main course sampai, dah kekenyangan mcm ikan buntal!! Op op opppp abg iparkewww jangan marah yerrrrrrrrrrr nanti kena jual. Maka tak dpt lar nak appreciate kesedapan that chinese muslim food yg sedap iteww. Tapi mmg sedap lar cuma perut yg besar ni takleh nak masuk dah. Maka tapau lar. Tulah lain kali jangan gelojoh, hokay!!

Back home, I went for bertungku. Deyy, berapa bulan dah beranak baru mau bertungku deyy. Apa nak buat kan. Aduh aduhhh sakitnya weh sakit. Bukan sakit bertungku tapi sakit kena urut. Mesti make it a point lar pergi berurut balik nanti.

Ida during this time, mandi susu. In the beginning she refused ... padahal dia yg nak. Menangis nangis ni. Tapi paksa gak, last last dia enjoy. Alahai apa sgt lar mandi susu tu cheh. Harapkan mahal jer.

Then facial time for me. Sis came to take Ida.

Habis semua, sakit kepala plak haiyaaa. Dad fetched me.

Pakngah and family together with Ayu and Ahd came, waited for me a long time since lepas Isyak and I came back only at 10pm hu huuuuu. So soliiii aaaaa.

Tq so much for coming!
(For pics, check it out in my album with FB)

TANGKAK-KLUANG

2011-10-05T21:55:00.000+02:00

Left to Kluang after the penkebumian was done. Sis participated masa mandikan mayat arwah. I could look too.

InsyaAllah makcik ditempatkan dikalangan orang orang yg beriman. When I saw her, she look so fresh, as if she's just sleeping. So different during her last moment where she looks so thin and pale. Al fatihah buat makcik. Dad didnt stop crying , frustrated, regrets maybe.

We reached Kluang around 2pm I guess. Makteh already prepared lunch for us, yummylicious food!!

Makteh taken care of Jade while all of us went to visit mom's grave.

Mak, betapa rindunya pada mak. Alangkah bahagianya kalau mak masih ada didunia nih, lihat dan kongsi bersama kejayaan dan kesenangan anak anak. Apakan daya .. Allah lagi maha mengetahui dan ada hikmahnya pemergian mak yg terlalu awal itu. We miss you so much, mak. Hati menangis dan meronta, wishing that I could turn back the time... betulkan segala salah dan dosa pada mak, layan mak elok elok, sebagaimana mak layak dilayan sebagai seorang ibu yg susah payah menjaga kami semua ... segala pengorbanan mak yg tak terhingga.

Mak, rindunya pada mak. Wish you are here. Al fatihah to my dear mom AILI BINTI ABDULLAH.

AL FATIHAH

2011-10-04T21:47:00.001+02:00

The kids went for swimming after breakfast, enjoying each n every moment.

We left closed to 1pm n stopped for some shopping at Lumut Waterfront. Took away McDo especially for adam who hardly eat malay food.

Ive spent really a lot but just think this way, duit blh di cari but not happiness. Tak kisahlah berbelanja or berhabis for others.

Mudah mudahan dimurahkan rezeki dan mudah mudahan diberkati, insyaAllah.

Al fatihah tu arwah makcik Nora (Saadiah Nekmat) who passed away today at 6.30pm. Semoga rohnya dirahmati Allah.

We drove from Lumut to Melaka but it was too late. Dad talked to her yesterday nite on the phone, she told him she is in ICU but getting better. Then this morning got a call saying that she's in a critical condition and that the doctor advised the family to bring her back home to say goodbye to the family.

We were too late. Dad was frustrated. Reached there around midnite. Went with Aur's car so could only bring Ida, Jade and Ira.

FAMILY GATEAWAY (LUMUT)

2011-10-03T21:40:00.002+02:00

Last minute plan for this year's family holiday. BIL could book a place at a resort in Lumut. Always enjoy family trip, to be together, havoc here and there.. best jugak. Tido dlm aircond, lagi lar tersangat best muahahaha.

Went 2 cars. Had lunch at R&R station, yummy licious food of course. To enter the resort, kena masuk hutan lar bukit bakau lar fuhh malam mmg soram lar. Kut tersadai keta, mmg ngeri lar. Rasanya tempat mcm ni yg bergaung here and there, mmg tempat peberet org bunuh and campak mayat hu huuuuuuuuuuu. Sapa yg nak tau? Takde orang nak bau ker apa ker sbb mmg kawasan tgh hutan!!

My baby Jade is 3mths. Adorable as she can be. My cutie pie that I love so much.

Today is a memorable day for Jade. She went swimming for the first time with atuk and guess what. She loved it! Doesnt even cry, was enjoying the moment. I am so proud of you. Lepas tu, had her milk and went flat the whole nite!! Bunyi mercun kat tepi pun tak bangun, punyalah penat! Pegi restoran ikan bakar, keluar masuk keta pun tak bangun fuhhh punyalah kepenatan anak mama hu huuuuu.

Adam went for canoe with his uncles n atuk. He is becoming adventurous with them, bravo my boy. He spent most of his time with them playing either MY ipad or with MY laptop.

As for Ida, she started to hv the cough. Slightly fever so she was kinda moody. Didnt really enjoy the swimming where usually she enjoyed it the most. She's clinging to most of the time.

So brought her along when i went out to buy lunch with bro. Took away KFC which was 30km away! It was at Lumut Waterfront so took this chance to buy the local products sampai mata jadi rambang!

Had late lunch, anyone was hungry like a wolf except my own son. Didnt like the chicken n I hv forgotten to buy him nuggets.

They continued swimming after lunch then all of us went to the beach where they went for canoe again.

Damn I regret to hv forgotten my swim suit. Coz seeing my lil baby angel smiling n laughing, just melt my heart.

We had late dinner at Teluk Batik. Lapar giler, quite lot of people as most of the well known restos r still close for hariraya.

Nothing xtra ordinary with the food. Port Klang yg ordinary pun lg sedap.

Anak oh anakku. Kenapa naik keta je tido. Dan bila bangunkan mesti mengamuk. Baik Adam baik Ida. Why oh why.

Anyway ... no pics, terlampau byk utk diletak kat sini ngeheheheh. Sila rujuk with my album with FB.

SALAM EID MUBARAK

2011-09-30T21:31:00.000+02:00

Salam Eid Mubarak buat semua. Having 2 aunties and 5 uncles from dad's side, imagine all the houses we have to visit and imagine how bloated our stomach can be muehehe.

More pics in my album with FB. Ahhhh .. so nice to celeberate it in Malaysia.

Kiddies with Atuk.

Kiddies with Pakteh.

What a great Aidilfitri it was...syukur alhamdulillah to be here.

BAJU RAYA HUNTING

2011-09-27T22:16:00.000+02:00

Murahnya rezeki Jade nih. Baru lahir dah mcm mcm hadiah dapat dari hamba Allah semua. May Allah bless you all for your kindness dan murah hati. So many gifts yg due to my busyness, couldnt take the pics. Here are some of it, by Ibu, Nekda and maklong Ayu.

Here's Jade with atuk. Dia ni mcm fobia jer ngan atuk disebabkan atuk suka gomol dan menyakat dia. Plus dia cukup tak suka ngan misai atuk yg tajam iteww.

So we left to JJ Keramat. Wanting to find kain baju raya for me and baju kurung for Jade. Apa punya kedai lar choices very limited. Dgn cashier lagi bahasa punyalah kasar.

Knowing that I was there and she was just around the corner, Ayu rang me and we met, chit chat for awhile. Im getting to know her more and more. I must say that she is very adorable as a person.

Dropped by for awhile to Lili's house to give something. Only for awhile. Here's Jade with atuk hensem ihih hih hih(dad's cousin).

Hope they can be good friends. Coz so far, Im happy to see them together. Plus, Faris is a brilliant boy. As for Ida and Khadija, ok lar sikit dari last year, main sama.

We headed to Ampang park. Could find baju raya for Ira but not for Jade. Too small eh??

Headed back to sis's house for berbuka.

SHOPPING AND BERBUKA PUASA AT MAKUDA'S

2011-09-27T18:16:00.000+02:00

The fact that I didnt have enough sleep (slept closed to 3am), didnt stop me from waking up early to do my shopping.

Ida, Nisha and Adam followed me. The main point going out today is for Adam to buy his "toupi". So fetched maksu, Erin and Fisha and off we went to Sogo. Banyak lagi belanja ari nih.. till the extend that I realised I didnt have enough cash to pay the parking!! (Maksu left by train with Erin and Fisha to makuda's house).

Maka korek korek coins in the car and my purse. Sib baik jumpa. RM180 just to buy gasing si Adam hmm.

Makuda invited all her siblings for berbuka. Mmg havoc. Paktam, Paklang and Paksu jer tak dtg.

My cousins. This year, bertambah rapat, alhamdulillah.

Nenek with her great grand children from her first and second granddaughter (sis and me).

Dah tgh malam pun off we went for supper at Valentine's roti, Jalan Semarak. Nostalgia.

MELAKA ====> KL

2011-09-26T23:14:00.001+02:00

Oh kids, pandai complain kata hotel ni tak best hahahaha. Mmg lar nothing to see comparing with HRC hotel.

They played in the swimming pool, enjoying the very last moment before we head back to KL.

Jade, entertained by Atuk.

Dropped by to see Melia later on after we checked out from the hotel.

Semoga Allah limpahkan rahmat dah rezeki tak terhingga buat adik adik berdua yg layanannya terhadap kami, tak dpt digambarkan dgn tulisan. Well known dgn pemurah, mmg kami dibekalkan dgn nasi briyani, betapa banyaknya utk my sister and family.

Patut lar rezeki bertambah murah, sbb mmg tak kedekut bersedekah. God bless you, dear friends.

Second time seeing you in person, feels like we met hundreds of time. Tq so much!

Best briyani adalah juadah berbuka puasa kami sekeluarga utk hari ini, yum yummmmmmmmmmmm!

PENANG===>MELAKA

2011-09-25T22:51:00.000+02:00

Goodbye Penang, goodbye Farah and family .... thank you for your time ... see you again next time insyaAllah.

We headed straight to Melaka. Didnt remember how many times we stopped. The kids, each of them playing with their own game. Ida and Sarah with itouch, Adam with my ipad. Aman sikit bila diorang main game.

Cik adik montel, aman ngan mama dia kat depan. Luas sikit. Kereta sikit punya sarat madat ngan barang.

We reached Equatorial Melaka around 6.30pm. Time to transfer all the stuff then off to see Melia and family.

Silap jalan. Ada dua tempat nama jalan yg sama and the gps showed me the other way. Dah kesian plak Melia and family menunggu makan sampai kitorang sampai which is late 30min lepas bukak poser.

Dihidangkan plak ngan lauk pauk Melia masak sendiri. Mcm tau tau jer kerang tu pujaan hatiku. Besau besau plak tu. I just loveee the ikan tenggiri masak kari. Sungguh yum yummm.

Best briyani in town. Kalau datang Melaka, jgn lupa singgah sini yer. Service mmg tip top punyalah.

Melia helped to get a bargain for the beca ride. Almaklumlah orang KL ni jakunis sikit ekekek. The kids were so happy!!

Pembawak beca pun friendly tahap gaban!! Explaining each monument and its history. Bless on you, Mr Beca!

Wajah wajah gumbira. Balik hotel around 11pm something, semua pengsan hu huuuuuuuuuu.

SHOP AND SHOP

2011-09-24T22:28:00.000+02:00

Ok terlajak sahur, must have accidentally pressed one of the button that cancelled the alarm that I have set off on the hp zaman batu. Was awake only at 5.30pm..too late.

Bf-ing Jade who is always hungry ain't easy. Besides, she is still a little baby that needs all the important nutrition at the moment. When I am fasting, it seems like my milk is not that much. With bottle, she seems disliking it. Had to force her to drink. She hardly finish everything at once.

To sleep, she would refer while i am bf ing her. Hmmmm. I need to drink lot of water coz few times when she is drinking, she would be complaining as if my milk is not enough.

The kids went for swimming with atok. First time for Adam. Atok bought him new shorts. He cant wear his swim suit coz it's sticking to the body. Sunat pun lum sembuh sepenuhnya.

It was raining when we left the hotel. Went to Tesco coz am running out of milk for Jade. Toys for the kids and baju raya for dad. The kids had fun at the games corner. Back to the hotel, solat then bf Jade where she fell asleep then headed to the pool with the three kids while dad stayed in the room to take care of Jade.

Cik Ngeh dan Cim Bam with their new toys.

After berbuka puasa at the hotel, we left for a walk at the nite market near by. Shopping time for the kids, some souvenirs to bring back for me. We then had some roti at a very "lokos" look warung tepi jalan. It happens that this lokos look warung, served very yummylicious roti canai yum yumm.

Farah and the gang came around 10pm and off we went out for supper.

Unfortunately, pasembur peberetku tutup uhuk uhukkk. Mmg no rezeki lar.

VISITING FARAH

2011-09-23T22:34:00.000+02:00

Sahur at 4.30am with dad. There were just two family there. Couldn't sleep so I was busy updating my blog yg dah bersawang lamanya.

Had to force the kids to wake up to have their breakfast. They went to the swimming pool and played there for close to 2hours.

Dad left with Adam around 2pm to see his friend while me and the girls stayed at the hotel. Lambatnya daku mandi ari nih, around 3pm hu huuuuuuu.

Berbuka at Farah's new house. Jade got her very first toy in Malaysia. Tq auntie Farah. How fast her baby has changed. Where last year he used to be such a chubby chubby baby, now, he look like a big boy! When last year Ida was so in love with him, this year, it was him to be so in love with Ida, always wanting to kiss and play with Kak Ida. Isnt that sweet or what?

The girls. First photo, adegan cubit mencubit between Ida and Sarah. Second picture, muka malu lepas daku sound. Mcm mcm budak budak ni.
As for baby Jade, sekejap merengek, susukan dlm bilik Farah, diam then main(sbb pasang aircond). Pegi living room, merengek balik and this goes on and on till I feel very uncomfortable.

The moment we were in the car, she started to calm down, keep on smiling and replying to me. On today I must admit that my baby couldn't stand the heat. Oh dear, cant imagine during hari raya. Mau gua lagi stress. Stress is the last thing I need at the moment.

We left to mamak's restaurant that I have been in 2008 with my kids and my brother to have that delicious soft roti canai.

PENANG HERE WE COME

2011-09-22T12:39:00.000+02:00

We headed to Penang pretty late, around 11am. Mcm ni lar bila anak ciak miak kan nak menyiapkan semuanya. And it's typically me to prepare the baggage last minute. Seperti biasalah kan.

Yg kelakaunya, check in, ngan si Adam pakai kain pelekat wakaka. Almaklumlah baru lepas sunat kan. People would be looking and smiling at him, dia tahan muka tebal ekekek.

Baby Jade slept till we reach Hard Rock hotel at 2.30pm. Sedap kamu tido dlm aircond yer. Yg tak selesa, mak kamu jugak, sampai kebas bontot dibuatnya. Anak anak ni semuanya ikut papa dia, the moment tido jer, liang liang terbukak, maka berpeluh tak hengat. Imagine, sampai mak dia punya baju basah dibuatnya.

Adam ada hajat hati nak mandi swimming pool but we said tomorrow only. So he spent the rest of his time playing computer games while the girls busy playing in the swimming pool. They enjoyed it a lot.

Bebuka at The Ship, my kids got to have the food their taste and eaten everything. Ida didnt even want to share her escargots. Look at Sarah's expression. She got to taste one but she didnt really like it.

Sgt puas hati!

Dad with his favourite meal.

With my dad :)

Sarah oh Sarah, mama rindu kat kamu.

Atuk dah finish, mak dia barulah makan dgn peacefulnya.

Anak daras ku kepengsanan semuanya.
Oh seroonoknya tido dlm aircond. Bila surrounding sejuk, hati pun sejuk. Bila hati sejuk, gumbira lar. Seriously i cant stand a hot weather, making me having my temper all the time when i sweat.

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OUTING DAY

2011-09-21T21:32:00.000+02:00

It was an outing day. Went to The Curve with the kids, dad and maksu. Nak beli mainan punya pasal, si Adam sanggup pakai seluar, saying that dah tak sakit.

Ida with neksu.

Atuknya menjaga Jade.

Berbuka puasa at maksu gombak's house. Bestnya kalau makan kat umah maksu ni ... service mmg tip top, layanan mmg first class ... dari Along cik kitam, maksu sehinggalah paksu. Mmg seronok.

Jade with Paklang.

Ain, Along's tunang-to-be. Very sweet. As she has adiks and anak buah, sgt sgt pandai layan kids. Cuba teka sapa yg terbaring kat belakang tu muahaha.

Maklong and family came too. Sedapnya laksa maklong!!

Here's Ida with angkel dia wakakakak. Daku sgt suka jumpa bai roti. Jadi jakunis. Yelah, memori bawah pokok pisang kan masa kecik tak cukup makan dulu hahaha.

Lepas bukak puasa, headed to Escott Residence pulak. Meeting up Zaherani the whole family. It was late. So sorry lar my friend mengacau tgh malam kan. Could meet her kids at last. Just that Sarah was tired that nite so couldnt take her pic.

Really nice to meet you again, dear friend. Sgt sgt sekejap jugak kali nih. Probably next time lama sikit kan.

BERBUKA AT MAKUDA'S & SUPPER WITH SHARIZAL

2011-09-20T14:14:00.001+02:00

It was berbuka puasa day at Makuda's house. Syukur alhamdulillah dad was there so he was the one driving all the time.

Ni muka kepenatan tak cukup tido yer.

Ni muka kepenatan yg tido tak cukup cukup.

Budak baru sunat. Ke hulur ke hilir pakai kain pelikat hehe.

Look at all those yummylicious meal! Makuda did my favourite dish too "ayam masak lemak cili api". Yummy!!
My most favourite auntie with my lil Jade.

Thank you so much buat makuda dan family sekeluarga for having us for berbuka.

Then off to Shah Alam to meet my old buddy, Sharizal. We had our supper there. Tq belanja ya, mudah mudahan murah rezeki.

Dpt jugak bawak buah hati mama ni keluar. Sian dia susah nak ikut skarang, almaklumlah kena study, this brilliant girl.

FIRST OUTING

2011-09-19T13:53:00.000+02:00

I guess I dont hv enough sleep. With Jade sleeping late at around 1am. Then after sahur, couldnt really sleep. Surprisingly Ida was awake very early, around 7am. I keep on reminding her to be nice with her cousin Sarah, that a place for nice n gentle people is in heaven. Dont know what's gottin to her that she decided to follow Sarah to school.

Wore the tudung n off they went by motorbike with atok. They came back around 11.30am. Sarah told me that Ida cried in the classroom for awhile hahaha. Cikgu kata jgn nangis, nanti keluar darah. Ni mesti kes tak tau apa yg diorang belajar ni so terpinga pinga, ended up nangis hehehe. Cayang anak mama.

First outing. Kat shopping complex mana, tak ingat lar plak (this is a backdated post).

Lepak at kedai mamak SU.

Durian oh durian, I love you. Since sampai last Sunday, without a miss makan durian lepas buka puasa.

SOGO

2011-09-17T21:58:00.000+02:00

Apa ada dgn Sogo? Ahaaaaaa ... ni utk average people and below lar basically. Dgr kata orang jauh mcm Kelantan, bila Sogo buat sales, diorang ambik bas malam, arrived pagi subuh then beratur depan Sogo, tunggu bukak. Then ambik bas malam balik. Perghh power ke tak tu Sogo sale. Utk average people and below yer.

Mak nenek yg branded punya, takdenya heran nak datang sini rasanya. Jadi adakah daku dikira below average punya orang? Hu huuuuuuuuuuuuu. Tapi daku beli mainan jer hokay.

AT HOME

2011-09-16T21:49:00.001+02:00

Stay at home mood ever since I arrived last Sunday. Jet lag and just so lazy to go out (to KL).

The love of my life... je t'aime mes amours.

Alangkah bahagianya tengok korang byk berkawan.

Buah hati ucuk acam mama.

Dad dearie with cucus.

Penyayang betul Irma ni dan sgt boleh diharap. A pleasure meeting her finally. Like a little sister to us.

Ahd and family came after berbuka. Ni dia si hensem paksa kak Ida makan coklat yg dia tak abis hehehe.

Has (my cousin's wife) with Jade. Hensem boy tangkap jeles wooo tgk mak dia pegang baby lain.

JET LAG AND SUNAT

2011-09-15T21:33:00.000+02:00

Cik kak dua orang nih dah kamcing than last year. Altho gado tu adalah perkara sgt normal. At least tahun ni byk main sama sama lar dari last year. Main make up adalah kegemaran mereka.

Sampai cik adik ni pun kena make up hokay.

Sib baik cik adik ni tak kena make up ihih hih hih.
Buka puasa yg sgt maveles perghhh. Pegi pasar ramadan adalah peberet ku. Love ya bebeh!!

Thanx to dad, tetiap ari beli durian. Perghhh maveles.

Cik kak yg hantu durian.

Bro came with his tunang.

Ida with pakteh.

My two sayang ucuk acam. Love you two so much!

Today will be one of the memorable days in Adam's life.

He was circumcised today. Although I feel that it's such a rush, that we just arrived yesterday and still jet lag lagi, I just go ahead with the plan. Besides, maksu (who is a nurse with HKL), susah payah utk usahakan buat hari nih.

So dad went with Adam at around 10am. He didnt forget to take plenty of photos for that event and showed it to me!! They came back later in the evening. When I called up, he cried. Oh my baby boy. It turns out to be that government clinic, still doing in an old method way. My heart sink to hear him crying. He hardly cry. I mean it's rare. But when he cry like this, maknanya mmg sakit abis lar nih.

I feel so guilty. And to see him walking, making it even worse. My heart sank. I am so sorry my boy. Even at home, he still cry (hiding his face).

No telling his father about this or he will be really angry at me. Wait till he recovers. Adam agree with the deal.

MALAYSIA TANAH TUMPAHNYA DARAHKU

2011-09-14T22:42:00.001+02:00

Arrived Malaysia safely. Having 8 baggage of all, not a problem at all. Can count on the kids to take care of little Jade while I was taking off the baggage.

Welcome back to Malaysia...like a dream to be here again, tanah tumpahnya darahku.

Manjanya Ira dgn Kak Ida.

Great to see my family!

Ira playing with Jade.

Went to pasar ramadhan with sis. So this would be the most delicious buka puasa for this year. Bloody yummy!

Ida with Paklang and Pakteh.

Tak kenyang lagi ... supper at kedai mamak peberet, adikku Karma belanja.. mekacih. Oleh kerana dah kenyang, dpt makan sikit jer. Selamat duit komer yer.

Lawak sungguh lah lawak.

When we were young, we used to be in two team ihih hih hih. Now that we have grown up, team sudah bertukar... Girls with girls hokay.

MALAYSIA HERE WE COME!!

2011-09-13T23:22:00.000+02:00

Syukur alhamdulillah, everything went well for the baggage. Reached the maximum limit.
Adam and Ida have one hand luggage each to carry. They were being very helpful, syukur. I had to carry laptop bag which is damn heavy then had to carry Jade.

After saying goodbye to hubby, we went. On the way, Ida asked me "are you crying?", I replied no then when i looked at her, she started to cry, telling me she wants her father. Then saw Adam's eyes full of tears and looking at this, mine started to be full of tears too.

I got front seat with bassinet with Jade while Adam and Ida got their seat behind me so it's alrite. I could change place in the middle behind so that we all can be together but we refused coz the seats we have was quite comfy.

MISS YOU, FRIEND

2011-09-10T23:13:00.000+02:00

Great weather on today as predicted. So hubby took this chance to do boat tour. He left with the boys. Girls left to see my friend, Joshline. Great that she's back.

Went to see her after going to the bank. Was around 3.30pm, lepak-ing till 5.30pm then off for groceries. Jade was grumpy on today even with auntie Joshline. Auntie was so surprised to see Jade chubby after not seeing her for 2weeks hehehehe.

So many things to do, started to feel the stress. Afraid of excess baggages too hu huuuuuu.

REST IN PEACE DEAR FRIEND

2011-09-09T23:10:00.000+02:00

Al fatihah to my friend Syahrel yg kembali ke rahmatullah today..your pain is gone now..semoga ditempatkan dikalangan org org yg beriman hendakNya, amin.

Day out. Weather is shiny on today altho it rains a bit. Tq to my dear husband for being such a good mood to entertain me. Notre Dame and Hard Rock Cafe to buy things, dropped me while he n kids waited in the car. Then off to Champs Elysees to take his new hp. Great hp tp daku x jeles coz i love my iphone so much.

NON STOP

2011-09-07T22:56:00.000+02:00

Since few days ago, i didnt stop ironing. Finished the 4full baskets of clothes. Gotta finish washing the rest of the clothes before leaving.

Went out with Ida in the morning to buy presents to bring back to Malaysia then off to the market. Lesser sellers during ramadhan n lesser products too. Then off to JoueClub. Searching for something for anak buahs and sepupu. Since cik adik well behaved, she got to have a toy too.

Hubby wanted to go out for the boat but i said no. Malas n tired to go out everyday. Many things to settle.

Feeling didnt have time for anything when i hv so many things to do. But with Jade, it's difficult. Can't really do things that i wanted to. And when she's crying, making it hard for me to think straight.

How i wish i hv my family here that i can rely on when im in need.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OGGY

2011-09-06T22:49:00.000+02:00

Received this parcel this morning. Sungguh berbunga hati each time dpt something from Malaysia. To my dear friend INA JAYA .... tq for your thoughts ... dari jauh susah susah nak post hadiah ... am really touched.

My sweetie on today.

Kak Ida.

Happy birthday to our dear cat (which is not really like our cat!). He came in the afternoon, looking hungry so dear cat since it's your birthday, I have all the affection for you and my time for you so prepared him delicious meal hehehee and bowl of milk where he finished everything!! Could brush him.

Kenyang perut, terus blah, bertuah punya kucing.

Btw, during the nite could here noise downstairs and suspected that the kitten is still there. Daku mmg naik angin lar, tengok pagi, meja bersepah, donuts bersepah tinggal setengah. Ni mmg bengap punya kucing ni bila bukak pintu tak keluar, prefer menyorok entah ceruk mana dia menyorok.

So this morning, hunting time for hubby and the boys. Dia menyorok bawah almari in the kitchen, then lari naik atas pulak!! Laju plak tu dia lari. So puas lar diorang kepung last last lari bawah balik and keluar ikut pintu depan (that we have opened before the hunt).

When I told hubby I smells something (shit), he says im paranoid. Then later on I found the shit of the kitten on the sofa!! Mmg bertuah punya kucing lar grrrrrrrrrrrr. Masuk umah ni lagi mmg siap lar.

Turns out to be only one kitten and not two.